Cheerful Dude ;D

Graduation Day

2010-09-29T22:24:00.003+08:00

WOW.
It has been decades since I update my blog.

Well,
today is actually e official last day for the graduating classes.
Tmr will be their graduating day, but that only apply for e Express classes!
That's sad.

Oh well,
It'll be solo for me to commit myself in e commitments that I have in school right now.
Today is just e beginning of everything,
I'll be strong...

EOY & O level Emath coming soon.
Jiayou! :D

Prelims ...

2010-07-24T22:59:00.001+08:00

on this coming Monday ! D:
Then common tests all the way .
Oh well. Jiayou (:

Dedication to July Babies :D

2010-07-18T17:32:00.003+08:00

Camera hates me, I think. lol.
Uploading pictures failed cos camera's batt flat .
Wow, such a coincidence, eh ?
I bet humi gonna wait till hell-dont-know-when then D:

Super uber fun times last night,
with all cliques for a picnic-playground-birthday-party for both Limin & Diyanah.
Yes, belated for Limin, Advanced for Diyanah (:
& yes, again, it's zhirong birthday yesterday (:
Didn't go Zhirong's celebration>mugging
Can't say NO to last night's party> It'a a sin ! :D

So,

17th July : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI RONG !

18th July : HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIYANAH !

19th July : HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRASSANNA !

Holland or Spain ?

2010-07-11T21:21:00.005+08:00

Holland or Spain?
Guess which one I'm supporting :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIMIN !

Numb the situation pleeeeeease .
I don't believe in God-siblings anymore.
But I'm glad Jazlyn is loyal one :D

Talked a lot lot lot more last night,
at least half of everything has been let off from my chest.
Thanks for the accompaniment, my friend (:
I've realised some things,
from what you told me is kinda true.
Though it's late to realise it,
& regretted + guilty all those shit ,
& e same time I'm happy to see e happiness in them.
Sure .

Fasting month is coming,
it's time to really let go of it ,
forgive AND forget AND won't U-turn anymore .

Bye Bye Mock Test

2010-07-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

Tsk, I missed Mock Test on focus today! D:
Teachers are already there,
can't I be excused? URGH.

Tmr no CCA , Heeeeee :D
Suddenly missed the camps I had previously,
at Pulau Ubin ! ):

Youth Day

2010-07-05T21:38:00.001+08:00

Youth day is gonna be over soooooooooon.
I want children's day!
Cos I still feel I'm a child :D

Back to school tmr! (:

Decision of the day

2010-07-04T15:58:00.005+08:00

I should really choose my decisions for the day wisely.

It sounded very wrong when the past keep haunting you,
when you wish to erase them away.

Jazlyn is right,when u make new friends,
you have to be prepared that he/she will leave you one day.

Pinkguy,
I called u that cos I made fun of u for being 'sissy',loves pink.
HAHA. JK!
Thanks for all e gifls & all e times.
U suddenly leave me with no reason,the problem is still hanging.
U were there when I was left in despair,be it bcos of any kind of relationships.
U even asked me how I felt at times, how I celebrated my birthday,how's everything..
U made me feel I've got an elder brother.
U said u wanted us to be back normal cos u don't want your feelings to disturb it.
I'm trying to accept e fact & will be back e old ME.
Yet after e chatting abt how crap my birthday was,u left me a midnight sms when I was asleep,
making my next day feel I've lost everything.
Did you deliberately do it?

I don't wish to blurt out to my friends in case they get too worried about me.
But yeah,
old friend chatted with me last night.
Exchange numbers & got an accompany at night.
At least we're facing the same situation,
so my mind feel peaceful now.

Sometimes, or infact, most of the times,
I posted emo stuff,
but oh well that's what I have to say.
I hope this post is complicated for readers to understand,

cos only me who can understand these situations..

I'll still be the hyper,
happy-go-lucky, craziest,
irritating, idiotic Rahayu in school,
for sure.

Wished

2010-06-30T19:39:00.001+08:00

I wished to be a blank sheet of paper,
with nothing written on it.

A year older today :D

2010-06-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

Finally turned a year older.
Yes, OLDER.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!
Nooooooooooooooo. SHIT. LOL >.<

Best and worst Birthday,
I suppose.

Next year, nothing more.

Back to school :D

2010-06-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

Finally here comes the end of the first day of school!
I was literally mad, seriously!
I myself don't know what hyp myself up.
It started from the fire drill thingy!
Oh well!
We went to use e WRONG staircase instructed by Mr Tsung,
& he called us back to e 4th floor,
& use e correct path down to e field eh.
& we were e LAST class!
If there's happen to be real fire, we're all gonna be deadly chaota man!

I was really insane during recess!
Was excited because of that boxing-hitting pen thingy?
LOL.
Cat fight was involved too! D:

Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .
I have no idea what makes me become so high till I lost my mind.
I really can't find e reason why!
Maybe too stress over ... ...
YEAH.

Okay, oh yeah .
Tmr is my special day! :D :D
Growing a year older , oh nooooooooooooo ! D''':
But I don't feel that it's my birthday after all,
so sad.
I want more presents,
I want more messages,
Greedy me, Yes,
I'm praising myself.
Hahahahahahahahah !

Reunite our Frienship

2010-06-25T20:54:00.005+08:00

I'm currently feeling very bored :x

&& at e same time feeling irritated by e music in my hse!

KARAOKE stuff by my Grandfather, OOOOOH ! D:

Earlier on in e day,

was irritated by those fogging sound + renovating irritating bloody hell sound!

& it's just from right beside my hse eh! OMFG! D:

Relax, Chill uh ,

Enough said ! :D

Yesterday went bowling with my Pri Sch peeps :D

Missed them like hell loads! (:

Though some cannot make it,

we'll gonna have another outing next holidays yeah!

& guess what, I'm e shortest one huh .

They still can laugh & tease me about me,

being e tallest in class during Pri Sch times,

& now being e SHORTEST one! D:

Haiz, time flies ...

I missed e times when we all are together as a class.

Cos we're e special class,

in a special room,

filled with 20 odd students ! (:

Oh well, let the pictures do e talking then!

But it's just a few pictures,

more in Facebook ! (: My FIRST strike ! :D LOL!

OMG, Cody gets 3 strikes in a game! Damn! D:

The brothers who likes to disturb one another (:

Idiots xDACT CUTE ! :O

Oh yeah,

all e fancy drills trainings in June are quite well done.

Finally finished everything,

& now just have to touch up & moving on to perfection !

Hopefully their hardwork pays off on e actual day!

Ouh Noooooooooooooooooooooo,

next training on e 29th ! D""":

I don't wanna goooooooo ,

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~ !

Never mind !

Cannot mix personal & school matters together yeah!

LOL, sounds like professionalist siaaaaa :D

ZZZZZZZZ ._______.

My Advance Birthday Celebration

2010-06-23T18:04:00.013+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO !

ADVANCE BBQ PARTY! :D :D :D :D

I'm thankful to those people who came for the BBQ last night! (:

Most of them said they had fun,

God knows if it's the truth ...

But I really do hope they really do! :D :D :D

I'm glad Mr Lim, Mr Rizal & Chin Seng Sir came to join us!

But I was too busy entertaining e others so no time for them! D:

Didn't eat much, or in fact didn't eat at all? HAHA.

Was famished after the party D:

There was a slight drizzle at night,

yet people are still BBQ-ing .. CUTE! LOL >.<

Guys always know how to have fun,

lucky there's Basketball court for them to play,

play till hungry then they start eating.

Hahaaaaaaaaa .

I don't want to be e badguy who start e cake fight,

yet I had no choice but to revenge!

My face had a wonderful facial, seriously.

I wonder how I look like on all those pictures taken!

Confirm unglam like hell D:

All presents received on BBQ day were real awesome! :D

I've received most of my greeds/wants! LOL. YAY! [:

Pictures below are e presents ! (:

Oh well, I don't know most of e presents came from whooo .

Booooooooo >.<

The WOW WOW WOW Sony W320 Lime Green Cameraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.

From: Sherlin, Limin, Diyanah, Humi, Nikita, Sangeetha,
Calvin, Tuhin, Wilren, Junaidi, Chiristine, Xuemin, Zhenxing

WAH SEH MP3! From 8th & 9th EXCO :D :D

Messages from Xueli, Xuefang, Sharon, Kaili.

STAR awesome necklace from sharon!

Thumbdrive from Chin Seng & Ms Fu :D

Perfume from Sek Eng & Kiachyi

Earrings & necklaces from I-don't-know-who ):

STAR pencil case from Kaili

Mirror to adjust my messy hair what-the-hell? from Yijun!

Dress from wenjie&cheachee, I received same one last year! (:

A bag full of girls stuff & pinky stuff from Fauzi

Yellow box from Amirah

Stiches cups from Zhi peng, It's cute okay!

Domo & Necklace(If u realise from e pic) from Xueli&Xuefang!

Notebook+care bear + pen, ADDIDAS watch, a big clip thingy

from I-don't know-whooooo D:

Big box aka chair + what's that soft toy name? LOL

from sec3 NPCC juniors!

I'm not sure who are e ppl who chiped in ):

If I'm not wrong,

Mingwei, Xing Yang, Jiajun, Jingxuan, Anthony.

Missing anyone? o.O

THANK YOU LOADS YEAH! :D

Hopefully I'll receive more heartening messages!

Love! :D

BBQ pictures!

Will upload more photos taken by Ruixia & others! (:

Shocked about ENGLISH !

2010-06-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH .

Scared the hell out of me yestd when I was told that not only we have to do
10 Compre & 10 Summaries,
but also 10 Compo & 10 Speeches!!
Meaning topic 1-10 both Paper 1 & 2 must be done ! >.<
That was really scary! Cos I haven't touch ;x
I backtracked & confirmed EL homework is 10 Compre + 10 Summaries.

PHEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

YEAH, confirmed on 22nd !
So sad some of those that I want them to come,
they are unable to .
Hmmmmm, never mind lah .

Hopefully everyone will enjoy themselves on that day.
Hmmmm, seems like my parents are more excited than me .
Hahah !

Happy Birthday Cody Dearest Boy! (:

2010-06-16T22:08:00.003+08:00

Here to blog with another reason, similar to previous post.

To my Dearest Eurasian Pri Sch Bestfriend,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CODY WEBB :D

I missed him loads, really.

YAY. Pri sch gathering on 23rd June.

Both of us plan like from few months ago,

finally we've decided to choose that date!

Yesyes, can meet up with those besties again, love!

So looking forward to it like hell lot ah!

YIPEEEEEEEEYAYAYAYAYYYYYYYYYY :D

Most probably having BBQ for Birthday celebration this year.

Yesyesyes!

Happy Birthday to Jazlyn (:

2010-06-14T18:54:00.007+08:00

Yes, I'm blogging again (:
Just for a reason,
to wish my little small face a happy birthday!

So yeah, there it goes ....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
JAZLYN SONG WEN TING ! :D :D

There... The centre girl! (:
Always remember what I've said in that sms all right! (:

________________________________________

Random mode time,
I'd wanted to blog about it yet I don't know where to start.
I hate misunderstanding, I don't know what happen.
It's just a one sided story ..
U just suddenly started all those nonsense,
asking people why my attitude towards u have changed.
Well, it has not till she told me about it,
& increased when u crap again by messaging me.
Friends are gonna buy a gift which I always yearn for,
since u can't get it for me, I didn't say it's ur fault.
Is it wrong to be happy?

It's unbelievable for u to get more than $500 gift for me, yeah u know.
U initiated it first, I don't believe.
Cos even my parents don't buy such thing for me.
When u insisted it, I believed it,
I was happy, was looking forward for that present on last year's birthday.
U've dragged & dragged again & again,
do you think I still believe it, looking forward to it?
When I wished I can have it on last year's birthday,
but it didn't appeared.
Well, I don't blame u at all.
Cos I didn't force u to & it wasn't cheap at all.

When my cliques mentioned about it,
to be e ones to share & make my wish come true,
I was really happy, just like I were previously.
They asked u whether or not to join in,
but instead of saying just either yes or no ,
u said alot of things, isn't it?
Later on u msg me out of sudden,
talking about it.
I was puzzled of course,
then she showed me e messages.
So I knew what exactly was happening.
But I don't know what to reply.

You went on to text someone about me,
when u said that u hated her,
dislike her & all,
yet u told her about me,
asking why I've been treating u wif another attitude in me.
Which part of my actions made u think that way uh?
I did not say things to u, or whatever crap.
But u just simply thought like that.
Don't u think u've been thinking too much.
Instead of asking me to clarify ur doubts,
u ask other people, even my cliques ?
All about me & that gift?!
Am I wrong to say that u're just being sensitive?
Just bcos u knew they're gonna buy for me,
u are e one who started all those smses to them.
Just bcos of that gift eh
& u sounded like e whole world is falling.
U invited me to ur private blog,
I've accepted it, but I'm not gonna read it for now.
Cos if u want to write all abt me saying it's all my fault eh?
Go ahead, then do it openly, need not private it at all.
Who knows who else u've invited?
But since u've invited me, it shows that u want me to read, right?
I'm not giving that attention, I'm sorry.

I'm not at fault in any way at all,
cos I wasn't e one who started all these.
I'll admit if it's my fault.
But , it's really not.
Believe it or not, anything.
This is e first & e last time for me to mention this,
cos I don't know what else to talk about when u're thinking too much.

Sayonara.

Happy Birthday Cousin Lovee :D

2010-06-09T21:34:00.015+08:00

Konnichiwaaaaaaa .

2nd week of June already, but I'm not even half done with my homework ..
Just a quarter or so only ):
Heeeeeeeeeee :D
Must really Gamatte le! ^^

Math lessons was kinda productive on e 1st day,
2nd day abit out of focus =/
Fancy Drills is progressing, hopefully it's okay (:
Cos it's my first time teaching fancy too ,
just had a little experience & like Ms Fu said,
'apply & think more ideas to what u've learnt '.
I've run out of ideas .. HAHA .
Well I'm both teaching & learning, kinda fun!

Oh well,
managed to go wdls waterfront wif e usuals,
then lunched at Ishaq's place :D

Next day went to Bugis to shop around,
together with Xueli & Xue Fang! (:
& to check out e price for my WANTED CAMERA ! :D

I've decided to have Sony W320 ---- LIME GREEN :D :D
Though it's not that 'in fashion' alr, I think,

but well, I like it ! (:
Though this is much cheaper than e model that I wanted initially,
I think have a digital camera of my own,
I'll be contented.
Next aim : I wanna have DSLR ! :D
Sudden urge to have PSP too =/
LOL >.<

Had kayaking course yesterday & today @ Kallang,
Had fun, of course !
Bonding time wif juniors, getting to know them is awesome ! (:

Esp e Sec2s , wow wow wow .
Played Truth/Dare & best part was going to Boy's Toilet for me,

going to Girl's Toilet for Wei Kiat,
&& not forgetting the confession by Jiaxuan to Yibin!
How cool is that man :D :D :D

Interesting & happy times,
hopefully I can continue to focus on what I'm doing xD
Missed EXCO celebration for Jazlyn.

It's better to avoid than having uncomfortable feeling.

Oh well, I just want a welcome feeling & not a 'go away' attitude,

it's really sounds more like a dog eh .
& I don't wanna feel e same feeling that I had on POP,
& e first parade when it's only 4/1 is there ...

Super important,
Happy Birthday to my cousin,
who came out from our mothers womb in e same year & same month.

Sayonara , peace .

Countdown to special day! [:

2010-06-01T21:42:00.006+08:00

CUTE HOR! (:

Hello 1st June ! :D

Simple greeting for the start of the month (:

28 more days to the special day! YAY ,

yet I don't really have plans on what to do on the 29th ...

This time for the last few years,

I'll always been busy cracking my brain how I'm gonna celebrate this special day,

deciding what to give to friends as small little gifts

or how to celebrate to make everyone enjoy & not complaining that it's bored.

Well, who doesn't want to get the best of the day on our own special day?

I don't wanna regret every year,

but really, this year.

I really do not have any plans.

Perhaps I should keep it simple,

but I do hope to have a BIG celebrations! :D :D

Too bad, I wanna save more money to buy camera.

Yes, using my own money okay !

But it's kind of expensive so i guess I'll go for the simple digital camera!

Soooooooooo, e money when I'm gonna receive on e day itself,

I really shouldn't spend it on food !

MUST DEPOSIT IT IN E BANK ! [:

Ooooooooooooooohhhhh awwwwwww ,

BEST NOTE FOR THE DAY,

I'm so happy when we girls went to Courts &

they were like saying they wanna chip in together &

get a camera for me !

OMG I'm really happy, I hope they will.

THEY CONFIRM WILL ! :D :D

Cos we've chipped in to but Headset before ..

so what's so difficult ! >.<

Then I can save the money to buy other things then ! (:

HOORAY!

I'm kind of excited actually ! :X

Damn looking forward ... o.O

Laziness explains my lack of update :D

2010-05-31T21:15:00.013+08:00

Wow! It's exactly 30 Days eh!
Last updated was on e first day of May,

& today is the last day already !

Yeayeayea, lazy is all I can say,

but with other various reasons too for not updating that much!

Hmmm,
The month of May is the day when I'm really broke.
WHY? Simple.
I have to spend my money on Birthday Cakes >.<

YES. CAKES! T.T

2nd May : Grandmother's Birthday! :D

9th May : Mother's Day! [:

CRAZY ALL THE WAY! :O

Other pictures were blur, so didn't upload ! ;X

10th May : My mum's Birthday! (:

15th May : Grandfather's Birthday! :D

Other than just celebrations,
went out to bowl together wif the sec3s on my last paper.

& to arcade but I didn't play.

Best Note for the month : Smile & Cheers for my new bag! :D :D

&& In random mode : I truly love Green Tea ! :D

&& RAHAYU will always stay crazy as ever ! :O

&& To let you Laugh-Out-Loud & make you feel better

Lastly, 9th June is Farewell Party for Council.
This is the day which I was waiting for, now realised that I couldn't turn up..
Just because I have kayaking course! >.<
Why in e first place I wanna go for the course,
I can't swallow this up man! D:

I really didn't expect that it will clash ...
Aiyah! What's done cannot be undone ,
I got another farewell next year mah (:
But it's really meaningless anyway, cos,
I don't even know if i want to turn up on that day ):

I don't wish to brood on it lah,
it's all just my luck (:
It's okay, all right .
Yeah sure [:

Now june holidays is here,
yet of course, not a holiday.

Homework
EL Trial papers : Compre & Summary topic 1-10
Chem TYS, Phy TYS, MT MYE paper correction & Redo, MT practice paper 2.
I think there's more but I can't remember for now ...

&& yea, gonna help out in fancy drills training,
I think not participating is a correct decision. HAISHH!
Math lessons on 1&2June, Parades on 4&11June.
Kayaking Course 8&9June. Farewell Party. PSLT.

All right,
will update more often when I want to (:
Sayonaraaaa :D

I just want one cup of Happiness

2010-05-01T15:16:00.009+08:00

A CUP OF HAPPINESS : SRAWBERRIES :D
Who will give it to me? (:

No matter how much I told myself to be brave,

I just couldn't do it .

It's all just about having a bravefront.

Just every day from now,

when stepping into the school compound,

It made me feel that the farewell is nearing.

People who are close to me,

are partners in events & everything else,

they are leaving Riverside soon,

I'm glad & happy that it happened.

Im not that powerful enough to turn back the time.

Or to stop the time now.

At least I know who to talk to when I really need someone.

When they're gone,

it's e time to bottle things up again ...

When things made me busy,

I buried myself with all these work,

don't wish to face the problems or obstacles that are blocking my way.

When now I'm not that busy as before,

I kept thinking,

I blamed myself for being a coward,

kept mum all the time,

avoided certain things.

& so I felt really helpless & hopeless.

I hope & I want to make the change.

I was happy & glad to see seniors back on speech day.

Without them,

I will not be able to be what I am right now.

Without them,

I will not be trained & exposed to many things.

Without their encouragements & motivations,

I wouldn't be able to have that confidence.

I was shocked when Benson told me he still keep the water babies till now!

When there is mosses? OMG .

Im so damn thankful,

at least my effort wasn't wasted.

Yonglin grew even cutter & he always denied it.

Still dare to ask me, haha :D

They were childish, noisy, serious.

They missed RS life,

I missed them (:

Their words made me feel that I must enjoy the time in RS,
before it's over ...

I will make the change,

I will bring back the motivated spirit that I had with them,

I must make this change!

I really must be real positive,

I musn't give up till the very end.

Since I've made up my mind,

then shouldn't be afraid to fail.

Though I'm really feel weird every now & then.

I still have to accomplish my aim in RS,

I don't want to regret after I leave RS.

Seize the opportunity now,

cos it doesn't come & go as you want,

it's you who seek for it.

______________________________________

There is only one happiness in life,

to love & to be loved.

I'm greedy, I want both.

I'm sure most people are as greedy as me too.

I lost the times to be loved,

because I gave my love to my friends.

Once I gave it, things went upside down.

& I lost both.

There's a saying :

'When you really love someone,

then the more you should let him/her go'

That was past tense,

though I may have chosen the wrong decision,

I'm still glad that I had the choices.

When there's people who likes you,

there bound to have people who hates you,

talks behind your back.

It's a fact, truth whatever .

I don't really care what people will say,

as long as my conscience is clear.

Though I might not be my friends favourite color pencil,

but I'm sure one day they will use me to complete their picture of life.

Though my favourite color pencil has drifted away,

I still hope she will be back as sec5 next year.

______________________________________________

Hello people,

no matter how long a bestfriendship or relationship has ended,

no matter how much you hate that person,

but being once close with her/him as a bestfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend/classmate is a fact.

I don't understand why people wants to bear grudges with one another,

bitching & swearing one another behind each other's backs,

stabbing one another, ignoring each other.

Does it make you all happy?

Is it really worth it?

Can't you all at least say HELLO to one another,

when passing by each other?

Whatsmore you all have been friends from sec1 till now.

& still in e same class right now.

Just bcos of one thing,

Gave up your 4 years of friendship just like this?

You both looked at the negative side of each other,

so decided to gave up just like this,

but have you both think of the positive sides of one another?

Why you people complains & mind about one another bad points,

& won't even praise & be happy about the good points then?

Really really really worth it to give up?

You may never know how much this person have done a lot for you,

influence you, makes you happy,

until you leave one another, next time when you both separated your ways.

Whatever it is, I hope both of you are all right & feeling better now. (:

________________________________________

Oh yupps,

I have a lot of things to say.

I should start to write my feelings down,

& keep it somewhere .

At least I can feel much much much better.

I'm afraid of a lot of things,

yet I dared not to face it :X

The Last Parade Of 2010

2010-04-23T21:49:00.005+08:00

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMZ .

It's all over.

RSNPCC for sec4 & 5 is all over alr.
Today is the last parade for them,

not for me .

It's a pity that it rained today &

some unpleasant things happened to my dearest sec3s.

But it's a good thing that we do not have to stay back

after dismissal for mass debrief,

which some even more unpleasant things might happen.

*Switched Channel to Random mode*

What will you ans if someone asks you,

'How's life?'

It's a simple question isn't it?

There's only 2 ans to this.

1. It's exciting and fun .

2. It's sucks to e core and sadistic

But let me ask you, readers,

will you say no. 1 to cover no. 2?

I took this pinky picture from Kai Li's blog,

as I agreed to it, 90% !

I don't know why I do ruminate,

just hope everything will turn out fine.

I'll be glad if someone always there to tell me,

things will be better & better each day !

Whatever it is,

on a brighter note :

I LOVE POREOTIX ! :D :D

FYI, it's a dance group.

Don't know? Type the name in youtube to watch their videos (:

It's damn awesome baybehhh ~ !

Lawrence & Dumbo are hot okay!

Whoooo~ Fuyou ... !

Cute bodoh ! :D Heheeee :X

LAWRENCE ! :D

DUMBO ! :D

P/S: Pictures taken on Advance Wassim Birthday Celebration@ Pastamaniaaaaaaaa

P/S: Picture taken on Sangee Birthday Celebration @ her house :D

Be Strong

2010-04-16T22:09:00.007+08:00

I've started to miss the crowd.

Seriously,

only God knows what the hell I'm thinking &

how am I feeling right now .

I wish I can erase my cheerful-ness,

to stop covering my weakest points,

cos it's hurtful .

To be truthful,

I'm afraid of growing up,
I'm afraid to lose people,

especially whom I've spent my 4 years with .

I did think hard these days,

I'm happy enough even if you don't know how I really feel,

at least tell me,

that you will be there when I need someone to pour the things out,

& tell me I'll be okay .

& of cos,

listen hard & keep it.

Not starting to broadcast it.

I just feel like slapping myself for being so soft,

though I look damn 'hard' on e outside .

Bad times will be gone soon.

I don't feel that e usuals are there,

even when they are there physically .

I'm looking forward to dining wif my Honey Faiqah & Partner Kevin (:

Will get the others to join as well bahs !

I seriously gonna hate next week,

I'm not looking forward to it at all.

I want to avoid,

but I may just 'break' .

Goodbye in Disguise

2010-04-10T22:03:00.008+08:00

It's just sweet & sour.

Today's Pass-Out cum Promotion Parade ,
is really well done [:
It's a fake pass out for me.
However, today's pass-out makes me think back,
look back at which we just took over the unit as CLs.
I remembered I was my squad IC cos Zheng Xiong was not feeling well,
came kinda late.
So Ruixia had to take over his duties .
Everyone was worried, panic &
at the same time, furious.
Today is really good job for our SSGT Wong &
e new Chairperson of NPCC , SGT Yap (:

& e most sweetest moment last year after POP was ,
everyone of us,
girls went to hug Wai Ean,
& of cos, the guys went to hug Wei Hong.
They were great CLs, really grateful to them for teaching,
& everything else.

Though Wai Ean have not stepped down yet just like me,
she still do help me , guide me along ..
I'm really thankful to her & so was looking forward to her today.
Cos I wna let all of us to hug her again ! :D
So sad, she didn't come )':
But, I'm so glad that she's there when I need someone to tell me the right things.
& Wai Ean, if u read this .
I just wna let u know ,
I swear I didn't blame u on what happened on yesterday's parade ! (:
So don't need to apologise at all ! (:

Yes, everyone were happy about today.
Finally stepped down from their duties as CLs,
take O levels & off they go to Poly/JCs .
After this, it will be a total different feeling when I attend parades.
The unique feeling will be gone,
it will seem that the parade is more quieter.
Though I do complaints about some of my CLs,
being noisy & jokes around,
always defy & don't listen to instructions,
don't wanna coorperate & everything .
& then I really just had to tolerate , URGH!
But when all these are gone,
I find parades not meaningful already.

Cos I'm sure I've mentioned this before,
all these little stupid things makes my day (:
Though I still have my sec3s,
well they are alr CLs,
things will be done by them .
I don't think they need me anymore ..
But I need to do my duty cos of my rank ...
It jitters me for every parades from now & then...

HAIZ .

I was happy to be SI at first,
it was really unexpected .
But now if I were to choose,
I would rather stay as SSGT ..
At the very least,
I'll be part of e sec3s,
can be friends whenever we are cos we're at e same level .
It just sucks to differentiate e positions .
I may seem fierce, cos it will make people think I'm strict.
But well, who wna maintain this idiotic face in NP .
I'm really happy to see e Sec3 doing so well [:
God knows how I really feel man .
Seeing e sec3s doing a great job,
Being together to do e drills for e last time in Full-U
wif e other Sec4 & 5 ,
wishing one another best of luck in e future ...
Memories & everything came to me !
I held back my tears when I heard e same old song,
during my P6 Graduation & now , POP !
& knowing that this is e last parade top be together ...
OMG, I saw someone cried .
& my tears just rolled down w/o knowing .
Hurriedly wiped them away,
be glad that there's POP wif my squad.
I'm so weak, I have to be strong.
Rahayu,
you've got a long way to go .
I'm sure I can do it de !

Night rider called me today,
I was really surprised :D
But stupid me, missed his call e first time.
& e next call was an hour aft that,
couldn't chat much cos he's on his way to work )':
At least, it makes my day! (:

OH FREAK WTF .
My cousin admitted to hospital.
It has been 3 days yet I was just been informed few mins ago?!

& I've got birthday party to attend too .
I promised I'll be there alr, so I will be there .

On a lighter note & just wna share this quote :

"True Friendship is not defined by the multitude of friends you have but by their worth and value."

Positive

2010-04-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

Most people wants to be positive.

YES. I'm one of them.

Ur perceptions & thinking will make this come true.

I told myself not to be emo,

not to be affected whenever things are really down for me.

I hate goodbyes.

I had tried my very best to be e cheerful crazy girl in front of every one.

But when I look at e mirror to see my reflections,

Am I really e person that I'm always like in front of every one else?

I tried to accept my fate,

I love my parents, I love every one around me.

But things are not simple as it is.

I can be always there for you, my friends, seniors, juniors,

every one.

But can I be there for myself?

HAHA .

Haizzzzzzz ,

it really pains me when I see things are separating apart,

eventhough I'm not involved.

But all are my friends.

I am helpless, I hope everything can get sorted out real soon (:

Ouh gosh,
I guess I've realised that I haven't got over that feeling
But it can't be helped at all .. HAIZ!
It's really painful to miss someone you see every day ...

Awwwwwwwwwwwww .

Tmr is Pass-Out-Parade !

I can't get to sleep man .

My heart is pouncing real hard,

hoping everything will go smoothly .

Pleaseeeeeeeeee,

I don't wanna be disappointed again

....................................................................

I'm really gonna hit myself real hard if anything goes wrong.

It will be my fault cos you're the one who groomed them, Rahayu .

I beg to heaven please bless all these ! :O

The Man's Birthday

2010-04-08T22:38:00.003+08:00

SMILE ! :D :D

CUTE RIGHT ?!!!

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO
MS SANGEETHA !

AKA : THE MANLY DAUGHTER :D

EHEMS ...
As per normal went to sch ,
didn't even sing any song for her .
After focus, had a surprise mini party for her [:
Was really funny & e cake is real huge.
It really made me full :X

Ayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh,
I forgot to take e pic of her card.
HAHA, nevermind.
&&&& She don't mind that it's not pink.
In fact, she loves green too.
But i thought she's obsessed in pink only >.<
Lucky, am really glad man! :D :D

Hopefully her unglam pics of her had startled her :X
& her MONKEY photo! :P

Ahh damned.
I'm tired & sleepy ... !
Came online to SPECIALLY update about her Birthday u know ...
Had EXCO meeting + Dinner .

OMG flashbacks ~
It's really sad to see my peeps graduate )':
& I do wanted to weep,
but nahhhhh,
it goes shows that I'm weak .
I don't wanna expose my self.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPS!
Sounds wrong !

Ending off with one unglam picture of her (:

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPS D:

I want a night ride please

2010-04-07T22:24:00.004+08:00

He's so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D (The pic)

Boo.

So many unknown people added me in MSN,

so weird, so horny, so disgusting ._.

Hmmm, I'm gonna be cautious next time,

DON'T ACCEPT THE ADD :D :D

Well so ...

tmr is Sangee Birthday.

She kept reminding us :X

Ouh yesyesyes I knowwwwwwwwww .

I have nothing else to update :X

Just feeling happy, just a bit though :D

Cos cos cos,

I really missed my night rider,

like FINALLY got MSN ahhh,

& chatted so happily man :D

So sad it's school days, I do need a good sleep,

Or I'll be really sleepy during lessons D:

3 cheers for him ! :D :D :D

Ahhhhhhh damned.

I'm feeling so hungry now.

Haven't eat dinner. URGH!

Blame on my stupid desktop,

wanted to go & eat but Yibin's file was hanged,

I had to end e program ...

When I recovered it ... It's gone back to a plain document! D':

So sad, had to do all over again.

& once it's done,

I'm so lazy to cook instant noodles,

but am munching some pineapple tarts! LOVED :D

It's not enough! So hungry~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Whatever, Ayu ah, tmr then eat.

When will my parents be back?!

Oh shit I haven't iron my uniform!

Okay byeeeeeeeeee :D

Typical Singaporeans

2010-04-04T11:57:00.004+08:00

Work is so fun.

Stood for hours, then not fun.

Backbone pain! LOL.
Well stand means got people = Good! -.-

But hey!

Some people are just really fussy,

& URGH D":

Got my pay but I guess I'm gonna spend everything sooner or later.

$50 to buy all those presents I guess will reduced to $0 very soon!

Okay I guess I can't cure my eye bags at all.

Didn't have 'good night sleeps' these 2 days! D:

After work spent time on some NPCC stuff,
hope everything gonna be all right,

Good Job people!

Well I don't think anyone understand what I'm talking about.

NEVER MIND :D

The next night did Sangee's Bdae card!
Took so long to do man.
Hmmmm, why is it so?

Stay tune, I'll take e pic ! HEHE :D

Yesyes, why I can sleep after midnight without feeling tired then?!

All thanks to the MOCHA ICE BLENDED :D :D :D :/

It's a good thing, yet a bad thing :X

Okay!

Need to head to CWP to meet Sangee soon,

to buy Calvin Boss present ! :D

Sayonaraaaaa,

P/S: Nutcase on the loose :X

No Mass Run 2010 D':

2010-04-01T21:05:00.008+08:00

MASS RUN 2010

WAS CANCELLED

DUE TO BAD WEATHER !

Hmm, I was actually hoping that it will not rain.

Cos I've alr missed last year's Mass Run due to my eye infection.

Was really damn sad when I had to be absent.

Cos I trained so hard, hoped to get into top 10 in sec3,

hoping to get a better placing than sec2,

improve from 9th position to at least 7 or 8.

But this year, I didn't actually trained that much cos don't have much time to,

& whatsmore, competing wif e sec 5s.

So kind of lazy man though I do want to get into top 10. D':

But I guess it will be tough :X

Enough about Mass Run,

must jia you for my 2.4km timing le ! ^^

HEY! TRY THIS SIMPLE MATH TEST NOW!

To predict your favourite Idol! It's damn accurate! ;D

Follow these steps:

1. Pick a number from 1-9

2. Multiply it by 3

3. Add 3

4. Multiply by 3 again

You will get a 2 digit number!

5. Add e 2 numbers together & see e ans below! [:

ANSWERS

1. Lady Gaga

2. Selena Gomez

3. Chris Brown

4. Rihanna

5. Backstreet Boys

6. Miley Cyrus

7. Michael Jackson

8. Taylor Swift

9. RAHAYU :D :D :D

I KNEW I AM UR FAVOURITE IDOL ! xD

Readers, Anyways .....

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY ! [:

Hmmmph! I should be playing Basketball now,

together wif ZhenXing, Wilren, Woei Jye & Zhi Peng !

But I decided not to ..

I'm lazy & tired .

Whatsmore tmr need to go work.

Might as well rest at home (:

So yes, working for 2 days.

Hopefully I get to be online to settle e things.

Tadaaaaaaaaaa .

Credits for March :D

2010-03-31T21:01:00.007+08:00

I'M HERE , BACK TO POST !

Ahaaaaa, blog seems dead.
Kind of lazy to post, cos nothing to talk about? [:
Since I've told myself that at e very least I should post some good things at e end of e month ...
So here I am ! :D :D

Overview of March

Common Test :
Just happy with my Emath & POA cos A1 ^^
Combined science improved & yeah, CHEM improved ;D
Humanities - Thank goodness, I passed! :X
Mother Tongue - HAIZ! B4 >.<'''''
English - B3 , MYE confirm won't get this grade :X
I'm just happy to see distinctions, so sad for MT ! >.<
Gamatte ! ^^

Sports Carnival :
Though it rain halfway, better than raining whole day.
Which really a waste of effort then.

It's really well done, though I didn't enjoy that much.
Cos I missed playing Basketball ):
But nah, can play any time de what! ;D
Thanks SCMC [:

Feelings from the heart :D

Mixture of feelings of course,
but no matter what kind of problems I may face,
they should have a solution to it.
It's life, with all these,
it makes life going.

But I really don't know when I can really break free from all e problems :X
Wake up, family.
Go to school, Friends.
Actually, sometimes it's best when no one understand you.
So they won't know what the hell you're thinking,
what the freak you are feeling exactly.
& sometimes when u trust ur Bestfriend too much,
she might just turn around,
stab u wif a knife & blame u for everything.

End of March liao, Really Appreciated ...

1. I appreciated Kevin for showing his care when I'm sick.
I'm really glad & really thankful.

2. My honey Faiqah too, she will always be there after parade to walk with me.
Trouble herself to walk to cwp, make a big round before going home.

3. Ang ang Ruixia who have e right mind as me.

4. The manly daughter, Sangee for making me laugh non-stop wif her funny jokes & lame stuffs.

5. My precious daughter, Prassanna!
Knew that I'm sick, asked me not to drink cold water when I was having a bad cough,
yet I still do cos it's GREEN TEA!

6. MR. TAUFIQ who wants his name to be here but I think he should be here too, just a slip of my mind. Much apologies :X
Always there for me, whenever I want GREEN TEA, he's e one that makes it appear right infront of my face, gives me cold lame jokes too especially in e morning so that e rest of my day wud be so much better, walks to sch tgt everyday, shares his frustrations & secrets? too. Really thanks for that, I do appreciate okay :D

& specially, today, the last day of March 2010.
Someone closed this month with a happy note for me.

YANG HUI XIN ! :D :D

Thanks alot for the words you've given me.
It really makes my day,
I really appreciated that [:

Cheers,
Rahayu Crazy :D

Promotion Of Parade

2010-03-19T23:17:00.005+08:00

What do I have to say about this?

I was seriously shocked.
Is this my Sec3?
Is this the real them?
Why is things going like this?

WHY.WHY.WHY.WHY.

I never hear any updates from them,
I thought everything was alright.
I hope for e best & I'm looking forward to this.

Standing infront of them,
witnessing e whole process that had happened.
Seeing all e instructors faces,
I knew there will be something that will happen.
I sighed.
When I see how Banana man reacted,
DOOMED.
He's gonna flare up.
& ugly side of him will be out.

I was really furious at that moment,
wanting to scold e sec3.
But when everything is over,
my mind was blank.
Everyone had a great scolding,
I do not wish to add on.

This happened because we CLs didn't teach them good enough.
Whatever the cadets may become, it is e reflection of e CL who have taught them.
Is it our fault?
Is it my fault?
I don't know if I did a great job as a CL.
But I've really gave a best shot & hopefully they did learn something.
It's just their beginning, I hope to see them shine.
It's just e beginning, more things have yet to come.

I need to build a stronger barrier of mine,
I'm sure I will be ranted at if they didn't do a good job.

But still,
if they do something wrong, it may be because of me,
that's why they are like that.

I don't wish to get disappointed another time,
is it possible?

It's e first failure in all these years.
First one.
First one.

No point crying over a split milk,
everything gonna be okay.
I TRUST THEM

Little Ms Happy

2010-03-19T22:49:00.005+08:00

Let's smile , just smile , to feel alright.

LOVE.

What exactly is that?

Do you really understand?

Read this & maybe you can know the real meaning of it.

At times, LOVE can makes you feel really great.
Someone who will be there to care,
but once you've split, things will be different.
Very big different from the times you had before you were together.

When there is a start, there is an end too.

Don't let love become hatred,
that's really important.

But it's hard.
That's why, relationship doesn't matter anymore.
Yes, I want someone who is understanding enough to hear my problems.
To protect me when anyone bullies,
to understand me inside out,
to respect & trust me.

But I guess one have ruined everything of my view on these relationships.
Anyway I've realised that FRIENDHIP is all that I cares.

Yeap, I'm working on it.
But it will be hard because of past incidents,
now I don't have e sense of direction.
Because e person whom I trusted most,
have changed her mindset about me.
& backstabbed is all e word that I can describe.

Thank goodness,
I've shared only one problem wif u,
not e rest, or I'll be regretting for e entire of my life then.
I'm glad that whenever I kept things to myself,
it won't bothers anyone.

Until i really meet wif someone,
who is really trustworthy,
I don't think sharing secrets & problems is one of my activities.

But hey,
I must believe in
TRUE FRIENDSHIP.
I hope i can get things straight to e point.

And at last,
I'll be feeling what this girl is feeling then.

I can be straighforward in e things that I do,
but I just can't get to e real point when it comes to emotional issues.
URGH. WHY IS THIS SO.

Cheerful Pie

2010-03-18T20:27:00.003+08:00

Isn't she' cute?!

Uber cute right!

That's my cutie & cheerful pie of mine :D

I miss her hell loads man.

Every little time when I'm down or even feeling frustrated,

I'll just call over there to just listen to her voice,

& hear her sing so sweetly!

Pictures of her makes me smile,

I wna go back again.

Whenever I wna use my com, or even mobile phone,

it's her picture that ease my mind [:

Some times I really want her to be by my side,

can hear her sing at every moment.

Her super weird laughters & giggles plus her smiles,

all in one, made everything so sweet.

She will not fail to make u laugh till ur tooth drop!

And so to myself and every one out there who reads this,

Define Character

2010-03-17T21:42:00.008+08:00

Let's define your/our character today.

I'm speechless.

Going Seoul Garden to have lunch tmr, perhaps.

Okay yeah, bored so here I am uhh .

Campcraft are just normal things,

for Sec2, the past is haunting me again .

Can I just turn the time back?

I really would wanna taste that happy moments of times again.

In NPCC, council and those special times.

Some things just can't go on ur way, Rahayu.

Just FACE IT ! [:

Okay yeah so Seoul Garden tmr ..

I haven't finish my homework ! D':

Good Basketball game with James,

he's damn blur & really cute I tell you.

He talked & saliva can drool from his mouth?!!!

OMGGGG !

Best regardsssssssss,

The Feeling

2010-03-16T22:59:00.004+08:00

Monday workshop was a blast, OMG.
Seriously speaking, I'm more comfortable in doing NPCC & SC things.
I talk better in those 2 events.
Not really into sports.
YES I do enjoy sports, PLAY PLAY & PLAY.
But not to e extend that I have to really learn e 'theory' parts.
Ah well, at least ,
I've tried my best, I didn't give up on it though.
It's just part of my responsibilities,
don't think of shirking it okay!
So, yay Meeeeeeeee.
Good Job Rahayu :D

Today's Math lesson!
Great, nice nice one,
better understanding on vectors ! [:

Today's MT lessons !
One ear in, one ear out.
I'm not in e mood in doing MT, listening to whatever podcasts.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh SIAN.

Hmph, tmr sec2 CC training.
The feeling to be back to sec2 is great.
But it's not e same bunch of people, Hah .

Yes, it's time to pass everything down.
Counter Strike is nagging with his YELLOW shirt.LOL

Sayonara.

My cousin is sick, same old thing again.
Worsen e condition.
uncle is in heaven.
Aunt not working.
Please uncle, do pray & watch over ur son.

Sports Carnival

2010-03-12T21:27:00.003+08:00

WOW.

Glad to know both Huishan & Chels are okay ! (:
Woei Jye must be disappointed for not able to play Bball.
Felt sad for him,
cos we TEDI played Bball together with ZhenXing, Huishan,Jiangxin last night!
Tired you knowwwwwwwwwwww .

Hmmm, nevermind.
Okay .

It's been hard on them.
Good Job SCMC ! (:

HAIZ & BYE .

Freak Asshole

2010-03-10T20:49:00.005+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

*Breathe in ... Breathe out*

That's what Faiqah Honey told me to do.

Hahaaa.

Okay,

I'm really very tired of this shitty endless work for me.

I'm seriously tired okay,

at the very least I just want you people to appreciate what I've done.

Seriously lah.

I don't ask for much cos I know you have other things to do ,

as if i don't have !

Another thing,

can people just stop pointing & blaming things on me when it's not my problem.

Yes it's my juniors, but why must I be e one !

It's totally a last parade & I can actually feel at ease,

but no.

Freak yeahh.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFreak .

How I wish I can ask from my parents to install one punching thingy for me in my room.

My heart is really heavy,

I'm feeling vexed.

Thanks alot to syariflurplurp & Honey Faiqah.
One to hear my frustrations, e other to be my punching bag ;x

& that RI guy too.

Though I felt so sorry for him, hah.

That's shows I'm super violent,
so stay tune. lol

Alright,
byeeeeeee.
They are just assholes wif no holes.

Career

2010-03-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

I need to plan for my future.

lol.

It's still a long road to go,

but when my mum talk about this to me just now,

I felt so lost ;x

I really need to use my brain to earn money soon (:

Gah, lalala .

Happy Birthday Xue Fang :D

2010-03-08T20:19:00.003+08:00

LEE XUE FANG ! [:

Hey Girl,

I didn't forget your Birthday okay (:

I don't have time to buy your present so owe you first ahh!

Didn't see you when I'm back home so didn't had e chance to wish you personally.

But anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D :D :D

OMG.

Super duper stupid, crazy, freaking funny lah today.

& also damn PAISEH.

Walked home & unglam things have been exposed to my juniors :X

I was shocked to see a bus full of crazy people waving at me with their eyes wide open.

Ah well,

Farah face was damn funneh ~

Okay, crap.

Never mind, their eyes got problem,

recognise wrong people lah.

NOT ME (:

OMG another one,

I'm finally done with workshop things!

& I can say that my March Holidays is not even Holiday at all.

For now we've received EL&MT homework nia,

it's already damn LOT.

Haven't receive any homework for the rest of the subjects yet,

but I'm sure there will be more man.

Especially ;

MATHEMATICS D':

HRC OH MY GOD :D

2010-03-05T21:06:00.004+08:00

SHOUT IT OUT LOUD &

GO BOOYEY YEY ! :D

Boomz !

Okay I'll just post abit here yea.

Just have e urge to blog about tmr!

OMG, we're going Pulau Ubin tmr for ...

HIGH ROPE COURSE [HRC] !

Intermediate one during STC freak me already,

what now ...

HIGH one ! :D :D :D ;x

Okay, let's just hope i got the courage to do all the stuff.

Oh My God ! :X

Yes, I'm not gonna post any sad things here yeah,

why post to remind myself.

Right ~ Thanks for telling me.

Move on lah, why can't eh,

you're right man, Babe Smiley ! (:

Although posting makes me feel a little better,

but if it affect people, i won't continue.

I'll keep them (:

Positive thinking,

Ayuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :D

Happy Birthday Zhen Xing

2010-03-01T20:43:00.005+08:00

Sec One photo >.<

Happy Birthday to

Qu Zhen Xing !

The funniest cute bestfriend ever (:

The coolest too ^^

LOL

I'm looking forward to your ball okay!

Okay, it sounded so damn weird -.-"""

I'm waiting for your Basketball! :D :D :D

Anyway,

hope our upcoming outing during the hols will be fun yeahh (:

& yeahh, thanks for everything man.

Once again,

Happy Birthday (:

No more dwelling

2010-02-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

Whatever it is,
this problem shouldn't be solved so easily.
I'll make you pay double.
Compensate the things you've done.

I've promised myself long ago,
not to mention a word of you.
I've broke my promise,
this will be the last time.

Alright,
positive thinking, positive words.
That will be from me from now,
hopefully.

Today is the last day of CNY.
Didn't have the time to Bainian,
all thanks to the packed schedule & Common tests.

Don't wanna waste time online,
won't be blogging so often.
SIAN

Only God knows what I'm thinking

2010-02-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

I hope what I'm doing right now is right.
I've been trying hard enough,
& definitely really worked very well,
to be treating you as real transparent whenever you are.
I kept my feelings till now,
& let you throw any sarcasm to me.
& now yet still trying to make yourself sounds as if you're the victim.
Still say you went around asking about my welfare.
You make me feel so remorseful & you'd dare to ask.
Crap, bullshit only.
C'mon lah, stop acting pathetic.
I don't wanna force myself to dial the person whom gonna treat you hell.
I don't want trouble.

Though I really had a happy times with you,
& also the worst times with you.
I can say I'm true to ***
But you claimed otherwise, I don't mind.
I kept quiet since you've gone for good with another one.
I just hope you will not hurt another one just like what you did to me.

YES, sweet times for the starting,
everything changed very fast soon.

I have not really forgotten the things,
but I'm gonna make myself to forget.

I can't believe you are like that,
it's really scary.
How silly when I've spoke up for you,
saying I'll change you & I'm not gonna regret it.
But hey,
I regret to the maximum.
Regretted for speaking up for you.

REN RI = Lao Yusheng :D

2010-02-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

Ouh Man,
I actually forgot about today!
It's REN RI, men's common Bdae lehhhh.
No wonder my Dad talked to me about Lao Yusheng this morning before I left home T.T
So yeahh, went cwp & ordered some stuff,
it really dig my pocket with a big hole.
Idk if it's e correct phrase but yah.

Then sapede at KFC,
then off to school.
Competition was over,
they really did a great job.
My thoughts of our Girls' Team is ... ...
Oh well, I don't know how to reason it out.

I'll just have to the best that I can do,
but I know it's not my best of the best effort at all...
STOP.

Lunched & took candid pics! :D + shop for stuff,
Dad called & rushed me home,
cousins all at home waiting already.
Bathed>Changed>Zoomed off

Other cousins' pics are blur,

so don't wanna upload them. HAHA.

See my Darling cute right.

She's e one who made me worried sick when we go KK.

My mum don't want talke good pic wif meeeeeee )':

LOL, & candid of me T.T

But it's so funny, fun, nice ! :D

Ah siannnnnnnnnn.

Tmr have to go don't know whatever house with the rest of my cousins,

aiyahh everybody lah.

Sian

Boys' Competition Today! D:

2010-02-20T10:15:00.003+08:00

Yeah Right.
people out there do you understand yourself? [:

Yay, Hooray!
Grandparents came back early in e morning today (:
Bought gifts gifts gifts.
So sad Grandma don't know how to buy my clothes,
so no clothing for meeeee )':

Finally had a nice sleep last night,
slept early about 10.30pm man.
Now felt much much refreshed, seriously!
Been burning midnight oil infront of this computer,
collation it's tedious.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

& modification of the scheme took some time,
hope they really work hard & PASS !

Gonna go the boys' competition later on.
Hope everything is alright man.

I'm fighting with my mind, my thinking now, lol.
When everything is well,
someone have to spoil it.
Why?
Can I just go on a hard way?
I feel like punching people.
Damned it.

Good News

2010-02-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Yes true, was acting cute when I'm not cute

in front of Banana man' DSL.

That was when I'm Sec2, what do you expect.

Hahaaa.

Memories! OMG.

I'm sec4 alr -.-

So fast ...

Had steamboat with family last night.
Whoooo, nice nice :D LOL
Family = My Parents only lah -.-
Okay then today what?
They went to work already!
I'm left at home alone,
facing the 4 walls D:

Planned to bainian with friends today,
but some can't make it.
I also lazy liao, don't wanna go.
HAHAHAHA.
Well Sunday will be the day bah.

Online till 2 am plus, close to 3am.
Chatted with lalala & I got a good news from lalala!
OMG, next Monday sehy (:
But you won't be stepping to my class anyway,
but hey!
I'm glad but don't know why,
it's abit 'ouh okay great' not 'yes, that's great! OMG!'
ROFL.
What's wrong man.
PS I really don't know!
Mood was lousy, man.
Maybe bcos Monday still quite long?
Maybe ..

Hmmm, wanted to sleep straight after I offline.
But I was really still wide awake.
So yeahh, did my homework luh.
I didn't know I was so guai, Heeeeee.
Last homework was MATH.
Hooray, but it makes my brain excersise,
till I'm tired, looking at those numbers.
HAHA.
Went to sleep with Aircon switched on (:
Tossed around like for damn half an hour,
it's too cold!
Woke up switched off aircon-switch on fan-SLEEP!

Like finally (:
Usual routine this morning without hp.
Heeee. PS to all those peeps who smsed me yeahh.

Okay,
Nothing much already.
Buhbyeeeeeeee :D

Valentines' Day (:

2010-02-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year,
Dearest Dudes & Babes! (:

Not going anywhere,
the atmosphere is not right.
Not having so called open house,
invite friends over as per normal for this year.
& I don't know how to explain to my friends
when they said they wanted to come over ):

It's about 40 days after my uncle passed away.
Just like when a baby is 1 month old,
although it's said to be 1 month old, it's 40 days to be exact.
So there's celebration, & yada yada .
Same goes to my uncle.
I don't know if it's only for my culture lah.
Although he is not in S'pore,
it's not good when people are holding that event
& we're having CNY celebrations.
Well, i guess my readers is blur too.
Hah, just forget it.

It's really bored at home,
can't even celebrate with them.
Especially my parents, my mum.
But I can go with my friends,
& wait till my Grandparents come back on the 8th Day of CNY.
I'm gonna bainian with them :D

Happy Valentines' Day! (:
Firstly, sorry Taufiq (:
I know you have so called 'booked',
but I'm lazy to celebrate, ROFL.
Not really lah, just not on this day.

Woah, it's Double Happiness this year.
I missed my Sec 1 & 2 years man.
When there's fund-raising event organised by the students in school,
selling roses & Valentine's cards.
Most people will buy & give & receive them (:
To show our love in frienship or whatever.
All those sweet moments was pretty awesome!
Couples were made,
I still remember vividly how Ravin proposed to CJ.

Haha, it's all in e past.
Also, the times when I received roses
& handmade cards from my friends
& seniors before they leave RS.
Time flies & i missed them hell loads.
I still remember I received few roses,
& I don't really dare to take it out from my bag when I reached home,
cos my parents will prob alot -.-

So i kept in my bag till the next day,
& bring it back to school.
Was slacking after school at the study tables with peeps,
took them out & do stupid things.
Like what?

Pluck the petals one by one & you know what lah ayeee.
In the end, threw them away ~
Wasted siaaa.
If I'm gonna receive any flowers next time,
I'm so gonna have the courage to take it out from my bag & put it at home.
Then cover my ears when parents start nagging.
Keep it as whatever dry flowers or what lah.
But I guess it will be a long way to go.
Well, I'm not looking forward to it anyway.
Cos I'm happy enough to have my Babes & Dudes around me.
& my 46 Children :D
But hopefully, next year will be a better celebration (:

Lots of love,
Ayuuuuuuuuu (:

Lunar New Year

2010-02-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

Woke up, everyone seems busy in the kitchen.
But hey! I'm so happy yeahh.
Cos I no need to lay a finger on anything.
Woah,
Grandparents wanna cook for us before they go M'sia.

Then off they went to Sengkang to pick my the other cousins to my house.
So Elder Uncle came with his family first.
Then another 2 cousins came with my Grandparents.
All the kids were playing like mad in my room,
jumping up & down my bed.
Oh man, that was crazy.
Who cares lah, as long as they don't fight.
Straight after my prayers,
my Darling was crying hell loud.
Her bro stepped on her arm & make her cry so badly.
How sad was that.

She cried & hugged me wor, sweet. LOL
It's abit swollen, yes.
She said it's very painful when she want to lift it up.
Everyone was like,
'perhaps she fractured her hand'.

Booooooooooooooooommmzzz .
Grandpa & myself went KK Hospital straightaway.
She was like crying at the Children Emergency place,
when the nurse bandaged her hand.
Her parents came over then.
Went to X-ray room,
her crying can be heard from e outside.
Imagine that, Dudes. Hah.

Went consultant room,
Doctor asked few qns,
just feel here & there.
Darling not in pain anymore.
Stopped crying already.
Everything was okay!
No fractured, nothing!
OMG. It really scares me man.

She's back to herself, went back to her house.
Her parents pack stuff & then head to my house again.
I was famished, gosh.
The other cousins went back already since it took us really long to come back.
We had our food,
Uncle slept in my room.
Auntie, Grandma, Darling & Me do our girls' stuff.
Polishing Nails. HAHAHAHA.
Well I was the one who helped them okay,
I didn't do much for myself lah.
Boring man.

I guess about 8pm or so Darling & her bro they all went off to M'sia liao.
They were like so excited man, cuteeeeeee :D

Grandpa & Dad went off to have a drink.
Left Grandma, mum & me,
had satay :D :D :D
Till midnight, lol.
Received smses & was flooded wif messages.
I waited for all smses to reach me, then I started reading them.
Hahahaaa.
Cos it's really annoying when I wna read, another sms received.

So then home sweet home.
Grandparents went off to M'sia after Midnight.
At dawn? I don't know, I was sleeping -.-
Carefree life they had yeah,
3 days at M'sia then going to Thailand after that.

How sweet this old couple is.
Hahahahahaha .____.

Sayonara.

Reunion

2010-02-15T15:05:00.000+08:00

Hey peppo Ayu Crazy is back posting.
Reunion dinner was on Friday night.
Cos my Cousins & Grandparents going off to M'sia on the following day.

So yeah, went to school as per normal.
After CNY celebrations,
off to Plaza Singapura wif my Babes :D
I can't find what I want to buy over there )':
But I got myself 4 new nail polish! (:
Including both base & top coats.
Which I wanted it so long ago, finally man.
Well, it's new year & I don't have new colors, so yeahh.

So .. I managed not to be 'late comer' for the dinner then.
The eldest uncle went home after that,
but my 2nd uncle all went to my house.
Chat chat play play with cousins fun though.
Heeeeeeeee .

See you again,

the always crazy Dude,

Cheers Coffee !

2010-02-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

I love sunrise!
How I wish I could watch it with someone that I love.
Woah woah woah ...
I'm given love drugs is it? ROFL.
Stop crapping lah.
Learn this phrase & it just came out of my mind,
Suddenly because of random-ness D':

'Whether or not it's happy or sad,
you'll have to face it''

But facing it alone or with someone,
it's another matter.

Urgh.
Still left about 10 more notebooks to go,
or more than that?
Useless me, only can write for few books each day.
Simple things can't even do finish.
So what if I'm busy doing all those frying,
but still got time to finish up the reflections right.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh.
Still can blog while doing your work?
Power, Fuyou ~ WTH WTH.

Today, felt tired so bathe.
Tired again, bathe again.
How many times must I do that ._____.'''
But a cup of coffee makes me feel otherwise.
Hoho, hoho, hoho.
Stupid me, should use this earlier.
Alaaaaaaaaaaaaamaaaaaaaaaak.
I'm trying to drink less coffee,
please lah ehh,
Rahayu, coffee kills your brain cells!
Insomnia will come after you!
Must get rid of this habit ! D":

Gamatte ! :D :D

Super Random

2010-02-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

Let's Go Random Peeeeepo ! :D

They are sooooooooooo handsome!

I want their posters man, hahahaha.

Wait till I'm free to go & buyyyy -.-

Okay, guess what?

2 days of E-learning is practically bored ahh!
I rather choose to go to school as per normal lah.

Oh well anyway,

had Geography extra lessons today.

Sec3's are back from their Adventure camp too.

Ahaaaaa, must have had fun yeahh.

Lunched with Sangeeeeeeee :D

Then shop around,

I still don't know what to spend with that 100 bucks of mine!

Well, that sum of $$ was actually for me to buy CNY clothes.

But hey!

I can buy clothes anytime so why bother to do that,

now just for CNY ? ! @ # $ % ^ & * ! ?

Haiyeeeeeer.

Been quite sometime since I step into MJ!

Heheeeeee :D
Just wanna look my Lin Jun Jie photo ;x

He's cuuuuuuuuute bodoh !

Woah loves his songs too,

though I do really is crazy about him,
but I don't go around buying/collecting his album uh.
Such a waste of my $$ !
Can listen music online per , heh :D

But I sooooo want his poster!

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Ouh! Saw so-called 'T' heels @ Metro, quite nice ayeeeee .

Wanted to buy that, but but but.

My mum confirm gonna be jealous or what.

Cos currently I got more shoes&heels than hers.

But yet, I don't wear them so often.

Back to my plans wif that $100.

Should I use it to buy my long-wished present?

HAHAHAHA. Money not enough, ask Mum to pay!

Whoooooooooshhh.

Wanted to get Levis watch,

but I can't find the design that I want.

Guess I'm switching my taste to ..

Addidas / Puma ? o.O

I got a feeling that my mum gonna pay the FULL amount! :D

Cos she went wif me to shop e other day,

she was like asking which type I want,

Choose already I get the money from her can liao.

Didn't talk about my $100 !

OUH MAN, I GOT A BIG BIG DEAL THIS TIME.

Sugeng Dalu Lan Sare ! :D :D :D

Ruminate

2010-02-04T03:55:00.000+08:00

Same old things kept going through my mind.
The exact same thing struck my mind last night.
No matter how hard I want to shake it off,
it's still there, in my freaking mind.

I hope things goes well at partner side today in school.
Cos Im having E-learning.

Gonna go school to meet up Syariflurplurp & head to AI Sec to meet AC later.
Ahhhh gossh,
I suddenly feel that I don't have the urge to go.

Im losing passion in all that I did.
Why everything must go this way?
Ruminative Brooding,
am I really like that?
Do I have it?
WTH.

Past

2010-02-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

How I wish I didn't heed my Dad's advice,
& then I can be a dancer. LOL.
Sounds funny now when I mention about me being a dancer right~

Im still keeping my ballet shoes :D

I missed my old days.

But nevertheless,

If I didn't enter NPCC,

I would never get to know my precious partner,

& my 46 kids!

Suddenly this reluctant feeling struck me. OMG .____.

Anyway,

Im very tired & I don't know how to describe my life.

Im neither there nor here ...

Chehwah, asal nak sedih lagi nih!

If i were to be a girl who is very quiet,

how would things become for me?

Im happy to be able to have a great impact on someone,

whom I admired the most.

Admire in terms of leadership & studies sayaaaaaaaaaang.

I'd loved to be loved,

but I wanna love & make people happy even more.

I don't wish to be a burden to whoever lah.

Campcraft Competition,

I must be in it.

I don't really think it would affect me that much,

as long as the letter doesn't get to Ms Fu hands.

Aiyaaaaaaaaaah,

even if I were to give her,

pun tak ada masalah pe.

Guess i should get myself to work on e next training.

Im well enough to do so,

who say?

I said it .

Pardon me for being so random today, kept switching channel in this post of mine. Sayonaraaaaa :D

Hot News Baybehhh !

2010-01-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

Last day of Jan 2010 !

OMG, so fast one month already !

Hmmmm,

I must blog end of the month to show my gratitude to whoever okay! :D :D

So what about this Jan?

Suddenly my mind went blank.

Can't list anything here.

Just simple words,

A Drastic Change Of Life .

I wish I could stop the time,

So that I could stop thinking.

I swear I'd want tostop having so much thoughts on it.

On a brighter note,

woah ~

Both Syariflurplurp & Me were nominated to be Station Inspector bodoh !

Im freaking happy giler ,

plus I'm totally surprised man.

The times when seniors asked me who will be the 2 SIs,

my mind would think of these 2 person.

Obviously my name wasn't in my mind lah.

Didn't expect I was nominated !

Oh well,

we still need to meet Area Commandant and pass the interview.

So good luck to me ,

hopefully I can be promoted to Station Inspector sehy !

Allhamdulilaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

Terima Kasih banyak, Allah.

& with all these happy moments that I was given,

was it you who have watched over me ,

& allow me to get this happiness?

How I wish I could exchange my happy thoughts,

with you.

Even without these happiness,

I can be real happy with your love.

I want to see you the last time.

But I was too late for regrets.

I hope you are doing well up there.

Miss you (:

Eyepower

2010-01-31T13:58:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa .
Having only eyepower for campcraft training,
of course is a real torture.
All i can do was just to cheer the rest from outside the pitching area.
How sad was that man.
I can't feel the anxiety if im just standing outside.
I don't know & I can't tell the future.
Im still hesitating whether or not should i tell what im suppose to tell to Ms Fu.
Haiyo!
Im just afraid I might not be able to accomplish what I've been wishing for.

Alright, whatever it is.
Im still must be positive ! :D

Alright,
What am i suppose to do?
Im actually lost,
just wanted to avoid all these things.
I hope all things can go smoothly,
especially to this particular Babe of mine.

Im lost when im just outside e doctor's room e other day.
The person whom i want her to be with me,
wasn't there.

Happiness doesn't come easily till you seize that chance!

I hope you are guiding me when you are in heaven.
Im missing you, alot.
I will visit your graveyard once im back again.

Be Brave okay!
C'mon Rahayu !
My mindset is right, don't worry so much!
Everything gonna be well.
I want to pick up that courage,
but i will take a very long time.
The courage of me having to pour the feelings out to the respective people in my life.
Whether or not in friendship, relationship or working partners.
No difference.

Just love this phrase :

Letters start with ABC

Numbers start with 123

Music starts with DO RE MI

Love starts with you & Me !

Passion

2010-01-29T22:09:00.001+08:00

Zoooooooooommmmmeeeeeeedddddddddd .

I don't know what's wrong with me for today's parade.
My mind is out of control!
Focus.Concentrate please!
Stop scaring your babies !

Ahhh damned,
Im gonna flare up with this unfair & not responsible people man!
Im really tired of all these.
Really really tired.

Im a dynamite now i guess,
can blow up any time soon.
Stop pressing me hard on all these,
Im tired !

Oh no, i can't lose passion.
The only thing that drives me in parades are all those 46 kiddos.
C'mon la Rahayu, persevere plus patience.
Chill chill , cool down.

Everything that im doing will be paid off,
it will benefit them.
Confirmed plus guarantee plus chop!
Believe it.

Im so gonna treat myself better,
to 'bu' all those pains in me man.
I must get well in that 2 weeks.
& im gonna fly like superwoman !

Believe it, I can do it!

Cheers,
Ayuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :D

Relieved

2010-01-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

Booooooyey people !
Learning Journey today,
I guess those who went to the Zoo must have enjoyed themselves more than us !

Anywayyyyyyyyy,
meeting after that.
Hope everything goes smoothly & I like the current Maincomm ;x
Nahhhh, whatever.

Next, went to Raffles Clinic @ cwp .
Cos yesterday after training too late to go,
at night was nagged by my parents &
so I was asked to go by today no matter what T.T

Im actually afraid to see the doctor, sheeeeeeeshh .
Im afraid I might hear some unpleasant stuff,
& that is why I've been hesitating for so long.

Ouh man , guess what !
Sinseh told me it's kinda serious cos got slight muscle tear.
On e other hand,
Doctor told me that I've strained my muscle
& if i rest properly for about full 2 weeks from now,
I can get well soon & be back as normal me!
But e cruel thing he told me is that,
he strongly advised me not to join CC competition.
Cos e time when my injury just recovered,
it will be e arrival of e competition.
If im gonna strain again, it will be hassle.

& whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat,
I've debated with him !
Saying if i can manage i will go for competition,
if strain again, we'll see.
Okay? He kept quiet & give me e ;/ face !

Well i have to endure this pain now,
concentrate on recovering,
to be able to bounce back to my real me again.

RESILIENCE

'No Pain, No Gain'

Ouh no,
it's difficult to trust Sinseh again -.-

HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA !
Alright,
looking forward to every now & then.

Every moment is precious,
I really must be sensitive to e ones around me,
spend time wif loved ones whenever i can,
I don't wish to repeat e same mistake,
& regret again .
For not being able to bid goodbye to my precious one before he left my world
& turned it into a pitch dark memories.

Keep Smiling

2010-01-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

Whoosh whoosh .
SINSEH.
Hah, yesyes the process was painful.
But thanks to her too for making my hand feel better.

Yeap , it's minor, that was what i said what.
Just muscle cramp, tear whatever shits i don't understand all those terms.
But c'mon la, it's just minor injury.
2 weeks of resting w/o any campcraft for me it's a torture.
But i must get well & start training once 2 wks is over.
Exact 2 wks : 6 Feb im freeeee to do ANYTHING.
Wahahahahahahah, LOL.

Boooooomzzz,
I felt empty especially when i need to face the empty house when i reached home.
Boooooooo,
look on the bright side of life.

Tadaaaaa,
sayonaraaaaaaaa (:

Perseverence

2010-01-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Ahh damned it.
Every family has it's own problems,
every one has his/her own problems too.

Ouh shits,
i guess Heaven is treating my life as a game.
Full of ups & downs almost everyday.
I wonder , when will this hell-ish(SINGLISH) feeling go away.
Like seriously.

I don't know where to start counting & listing down the problems.
Im unaware of all this crap surroundings that God gave it to me.
How i wish i can stop the time,
& let me rest after all this 'Disasters' that have struck me.

Of course,
giving a smile or laugh out loud is a way to erase frustrations.
That's what im capable of, & it do makes people besides me happy.
I can't possibly start crying everytime,
to be a crybaby like everyday,
even worst, people besides me can get moody.
So I don't want to be the cause of all this.

C'mon Rahayu !
Yes Im sure im not gonna let all these shitty things to affect me,
in school !
& ya, it takes time to heal all wounds,
it may be a short time or very long time.
God Knows.

Side track,
I don't think my wishes will come true in NPCC.
The things that i can see from now,
may not happen . How sad .

Okay, im not gonna let myself to be so-called
a 'slacker' in NP room for any parades anymore.
& Im not gonna let my name appear in that Admin book again.
I felt damn suckish not being able to be with e sec3s.

& im truly afraid of tmr .
Im SURE it's just minor injury, nothing else.
Competition coming, I can't afford to be really 'paralysed' !
RAHAYUUUUUUUUUU, you'll be okay :D

Love is Impulsive

2010-01-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

I wished to say the things that you wanna hear.
Because you are Mr. Nice !
But im really afraid to hurt another person and again, myself.
I don't want bcos of my little decision,
caused everything to be so miserable.
& we are gonna face each other more than a year of trainings.
I don't want to screw the friendship and the joker of yours.

& im not in a right situation to have a relationship.
All i want for now,
is a good listener and shoulders for me to lean on.
I need someone to share my frustrations.
Because I cannot tolerate anymore,
with all those things in my mind.

Thanks for your understanding ,
we are just close friends.

Forgetful

2010-01-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

Whooooooooossshhh ~ !!
Campcraft training, great job but we have to improve even further !
Morning wake up throat totally damn pain man, with blocked nose T.T
Running nose started when im on my way to sch, wahlao felt really sick sia.

But hey! I tot i'll be casualty man .
Seriously, im so happy that i did train CC yeahh. LOLS

Luch-ed aft training ,
2 sec3 jokers , funny sehy .

Ouhwell,
i realised that i didn't bring my hse key & no one's at home !
Lucky got 2 pathetic boys to entertain me wif their love life.
Hahahahahaha !

Kinda late so didn't wna hold them too long ,
tot i'll just have to camp outside my hse ,
grandparents came back alr & they were hvg their lch !
Booyey , got keys to go in ! (:
Woots ahh , got lots of homework to rush ! -.-
Pathetic me , got to use tissue to stuff it into my nose when doing hmwk!

Left chinese letter writing & EL compo !
Grrrrrrrr ...

Thats all & off to chat with my night rider !

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa .

Sayonaraaaaaaaaa .

I dont wanna be sick , please let me get well soon . Im relying on you, God !

Back To Parade :D

2010-01-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

Im beat.
Both emotional & physical.
Real beat like hell.
Ouh God , please send someone to me can?
Im freaking out, been distracted in class )':
I need a good listener & shoulders .
If anyone understand that.

Ahh shits.
Anyway, i just wna vent some things out for now ..
Just thought of my uncle , he's always on my mind .
Today is e exact ONE week after his ***** ..
& at kampong they are having kenduri ,
Im really devastated not to be there ... ...
But i know, it can't be helped .

Someone pls cure me wif all these shitty things ! D':

So, im so glad to be back with my sec3 .
Watever comm they are in, im sure they can be good CLs .
I really wna them to be outstanding.
Ahh enough said then .
I jus dun understand how ** think of them man !

Aft parade, it's really a hell thingy for me !
Seriously, freaked & really damn malu ass sia !
Im so gonna not let CS win this !
Grr ... !

Ouh please, i need to let my heart out of all these ,
I can't tolerate anymore .

& P/S : Im totally sorry if im in a bad mood for no reason .

There's always reasons to everything, if i flare up just like that ..

Im really sorry .

Bring him back to my world

2010-01-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

Blurrish shot cos of my hand .________.
Damn freaking funny hor !

Ouh God, the word 'Dead' is super sensitive to me now ... ...
An sms from my aunt struck me like hell & i cant really take it.

I've been looking forward to my uncle recovery ,
also been praying hard for him.
All i prayed for was only & always these 3 things :
1. Hoping that my uncle can recover fast because he was discharged already.
2. Hope my parents work even harder to help my uncle's needs.
3. Prays hard for my loved ones & friends, may harm be avoided.

I just hope these ...
Yet just a blink of my eye, i was told that uncle has gone.
It really hit me hard & im afraid that i can't concentrate the things i have on my hand right now.
I hope this will not affect me too much in school, i'll try not to.
But the thing is, I still feel that uncle is still beside me.
I really doesn't wanna know if he really had left me, us .
He is my favourite uncle & he dotes on me e most.

For now, im really worried about the guy who took e photo with me at e top.
Firstly, parents divorced.
He lives wif e mum & e dad was sick then.
& now, Dad had left him alone wif his mum ...
He will stop schooling from next year ...
Single parent is really sadistic , & i wanna him to be happy!
I really wanna know how he is now , i hope he is strong .
He is cheerful and i really hope he is stronger than me .

I really don't dare to think when im back to Indonesia again e next time round,
without e person who i really wanna see ,
because all i can visit is at ,
the graveyard .

& to whoever is reading this ,
& if you're involved in Orientation Camp whether or not you're an OGL or a Maincomm member,
all of you have done really great.
There's nothing much i wanna say because I really have no mood to elaborate the things that happened for that 2 days.
But all i wanna say is, we made this camp a success not only bcos of e Maincomm but EVERYONE of us!

Changing Lifestyle

2010-01-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

Tadaaaaaaaa .
Just wanna share this positive sentence with my readers !

' If you like something,
If you love something,
you will not wait for others to ask you to do it,
but you will do it yourself . '

Buck up and striveeeeeeeeeee :D

I didn't know until you tell me ,
I didn't realise that I actually have a positive big impact on someone.
& Im glad to hear that !
Thanks so much to ya know ...
Heeee, shall not mention the name here .
I will just have to wish you the best ,
everyone do have his/her weaknesses BUT also the STRENGTHS !
Don't only look at your weakness but also the positive side of you ! :D

Sayonara .

Back To School

2010-01-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

First Day of school. Great.

Holding the x'mas gifts too long, finally distributed to the respective owners, lol.

Hmm, anyway yeap Mr Tsung is funneh ~

But e the positive i've learnt is that ,

he practised mannerism. (Although quite exaggerating)

Bowing 90 degrees quite awkward in s'pore.

But japanese do that.

Im really surprised there is actually someone who is uniquely different.

& e words he said are BIG words.

It's time to catch up wif ur vocab Ayu ! (:

Im hope tmr will be a better day.

Things coming up next :

1. Orientation Briefing

2. Sec1 Orientation Camp

3. Campcraft Trainings & Competition

4. Lets Play! Programme 2010

5. Sports Leaders Workshop

6. Sports Leaders Workshop

7. Olympics Camp

8. 9th EXCO selection matters

I hope everything goes smoothly. Insyallah (:

Ayuuuuuuuuu .

Secondary 4 Life

2010-01-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

Whooshh ~ !

Tmr the first day of school .

First start of my Secondary 4 life gonna start in few more hours !

Ohwell, jiayous !

LUMINA !

OMG i miss them hell loads man )':

Having an outing on 6th Jan !

But i can't go with them ):

Ouh well, i got school while they don't !

JC whaaaaaaat ._________.

On a brighter note ,

we can have more outings another time !

Sayonara !

Happy New Year :D

2010-01-02T12:30:00.000+08:00

Whoo !
Had sushi & strawberries last night when watching e countdown .
With just these little thing things, im contented enough (:

Anw,
HAPPY NEW YEAR !
2010, many said :
A new year, a new beginning .
I'll make this a new beginning for me, I won't let 2009 problems pester me.
Whatever i said, i hope it will be true.

Anw,
Happy Birthday to Mak'E ! (Grandma) 01Jan2010 !
Hmm, she donwanna take e pic but i forced her !
She dont wanna pose )':

Merry Christmas

2009-12-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Merry Chrismas !
LOLs .. ...

Anw, im backkkkkkkkkkkkk !

Ouh yeahh ,
e trip is simply just A-W-E-S-O-M-E ! :D

I don't know how to describe but ..
it was FUN !
There's outdoor & indoor theme parks ,
like Escape Theme Park ,
but it's sooooooooo much bigger !
Indoor theme park is like in e shopping mall ?!?!
Blogger allow me to upload pics alr, i guess !
But i haven't find time to upload those pics ,
so i guess next time la .

Anw, 2nd day bumped into Azhariiiiiiiiiii ..
E girl beside him , should be his sis i guess ?
Hah, he should have a great time wif his family tooooo ..

Then then then, e scenery was nice,
& it was seriously damn cold outside ..
At night at e outdoor theme park !
Ouh gosssssssshhhh ... -.-"

Compared to past years x'mas ,
This year's Christmas is e most fun one lorhhhhh !
We had dinner wif all my grandpa's colleagues ,
Christmas night was 'WOW'
Hah, fun fun fun like hell ! :D :D

Ouh man, enough said .
It was just FUN ! (:

&& I didn't regret going (:
*winks*

Alright ~ Sayonaraaaaaaa .

Christmas Eve

2009-12-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

Heyo !
Yesterday :
Sec1 registration > get results > home > slept > cwp > home
Was damn sleepy when i got home,
straightaway sleep, wearing my uniform still.
Woke up it was 5pm?!?!
Bathe & rushed over to cwp to meet Taufiq & Limin to get my notes back at 5.30pm!
Had a terrible headache at night, not forgetting stupid sore throat too,
so slept till e next day ...

Hmmm ...
So today is Christmas Eveeeeeeeeee ! :D
Went over to IMM wif Grandparents,
to meet up wif my relatives who came here to celebrate their x'mas !
Hmm, 3 of them from Australia,
& e rest .. 4 of them from M'sia !
They're going back this coming Saturday after x'mas ,
went IMM to have lunch & shops for presents !
Hmm, e baked rice there quite niceeeeeeeeeee ! LOL.
Then went over to their rented condo ,
ate SUSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ! :D
Ohwell, didn't talk that much wif my relatives who are abt e same age as me.
All of them are guys, what do u expect huh !

Enough said.
Going over to M'sia in about 5.5 more hours already.
Something wrong wif blogger timing -.-
Grandpa's friends will come over to our place at about 4am to pick us,
& then off we go to Genting !

So before i forget ,
just wanna wish everyone :

MERRY CHRISTMAS ! :D

P/S : Though some may not be celebrating,
but it's also a happy celebration ,
so wishing each other and give our best wishes to everyone is nothing wrong!

Will be away for 3 days, i guess .
Do continue tagging please (:

Good night (:

I need strength

2009-12-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

Went out at least to have fresh air, ya know.
Cant be cooping myself in e house.
I don't know is it bcos my eye twitched quite often now ,
& thats why im feeling that its twitching again.
Am i just scaring myself?

Gaaaaaaah, just drop this.

After dinner today was feeling different.
Abit sore throat & 'heavy' headache.
Feeling sick man.
OMG, going genting soon, please prevent this to happen.

I guess i need to sleep now,
gotta wake up quite early to go sch tmr .
Give me strength for tmr please,
Bismillahirohmanirohim .
I dont really know how to spell but , ya .

So wishing all ,
Sugeng Dalu .

Penny of my thoughts

2009-12-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

Im sorry to my readers for today's post.
Kinda emo for this.

Left eye kept twitching again for the whole of today.
Thought OGL training got some prob,
but thats not e worst.

Anyway,
i guess what Yishen said really describe me.
But there's always reasons why i chose to be that way.

Went home quite late.
Dad called before i reach home, i've asked him not to wait for me for dinner.
But im really guilty when i stepped into e house,
went to bath, passed kitchen,
saw all e food untouched.
OMG, im truly sorry to them for waiting for me.
It was hard for me to apologise to them, seriously,
cos im e type of person who is very difficult to say SORRY to them!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah, it's over. Nothing happen, they understand (:

Ohwell, supposed to go home wif my cliques but didn't in e end,
really sorry for causing them to wait like no one's business.
Seriously, SORRY ):

During dinner mum told me my uncle's condition is really very worst.
He now talks to himself & doesn't recognise anyone.
It really heartens me, he's close to me yet,
i cant do anything at all.
He is bedridden, cant stand cant squad.
Doctor said only if he can squad to shit, (i knw abit funny)
then he can transfer him to another hospital to have e injection.
But he cant even do that, he got a little hope.
Im really worried for him, i wna go & see him.
I don't know what will hapeen to his son (my cousin).
He's just sec 1 !
Ya ampun, may Allah bless him.
Please do help him pray too, readers, okay?
Hahahahahahah :D :D :D
I wanted to breakdown aft wat mum said,
but did not.
Cos it will worries mum even more.
These things already kept her thinking hard enough,
i don't want my feelings to influence her& cause her not sleeping well.

On a brighter note:
' Whether you are happy or unhappy, you'll get over it.
Days will still pass by.
Being sad or happy it's ur choice,
but why not face it happily?'

Im just abt to end this post but mum came to me & told me that uncle is getting okay!
OMG, i don't believe these things,
but there are spirit who disturb him,
which we cant see them,
& thats e ones who talks to uncle.
Thats why he cant recognise anyone.
There are relatives who helped him to bring e 'group' of people,
who handle those so called spirit to 'shoo' it away.
Now he's able to stand! He's able to talk, getting like normally!
Im pleased to hear that you know?!
Ohwell, there really is black magic.
I can't believe, but i don't care.
I just hope my uncle is well & fit & healthy,
I will be contented enough.
Allhamdulillah .... (:

So my friends out there!
Please do takecare ! (:

Sayonaraaaaaa !

Half-Dead, My Blog or My Life?

2009-12-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

Damned it.
I just hate it when blogger doesn't allow me to upload any pics.
Grr .. !

Ohwell, just a little update.
Been not updating eventhough i was online lots of times.

Just doing some stuff till im driving crazy, like seriously.
Hate it when people do things ANYHOW.

Okay, this blog is not dead okay !
*point to Jazlyn Song Wen Ting*
People are tagging, it's half-dead, not dead.
Hah, a load of crap uh .

Oh well im done working on my longest post about my holidays in Indonesia.
& it's just below this post(:
Somehow also called Balik Kampong, but it's holiday still.
Hmmm ... but it's not interesting when there's no pictures at all.
Grr ..
Anyone knows how to upload pics using other method? o.O
God bless you if you're willing to share with me !
Hahahahahahahahahahaha !

Anyway yeahh .
Going Genting at Malaysia on Christmas,
though im not willing to go ...
Somehow i gotta go .
My little cute pie going , hooray ! :D

Ah shit shit, my left eyelid kept twitching from the previous meeting.
Right Ruixia~
& finally it just stopped twitching today,
just because i received one freaking stupid news that really is saddening to me.
I wonder what the future can give me ...
I don't want to lose anyone, especially my love ones,
the one that I had fun with when im still a kid.
May Allah bless, & i'll pray for you.

I guess this update will be just fine?
Previous days no need to update can la yeah?
Bcos too long post w/o any pics may seem bored to my readers.
Hah, thats all.

Sayonaraaaaaaaaaaa :D