- All I want is to Breakfree! -

Breakdown Friday, May 1, 2009 3:00 PM

Back here !
it's been quite some time since i blog ayee.
P/S , been busy lately & struggling my studies too .
Because of that ONE week of MC,
I have missed damn lots of lessons .
2 w/s of maths. Can u believe it?
Haha . Maths can really torture like hell mans .
This is really my first time getting that long of MC mans .

Haiz, well i do really need to cover what i've missed quickly
cos' MYE is coming in another 3 more days .
I shall stop tokin' about my studies for now ahh .
It's making me more fruz. HAHA ;D

I really have alot to say,
just dunO where to start .
I wanted to tell this particular person straight infont of e face,
but what's e use?
i'm tired of it alr .
I wud jus wanna tell YOU that
i'm really disappointed in YOU this time round you see .
YOU always won't back me up whenever i'm having probs .

Well,
u always wanted to attract attention which i feel that it's stupid.
U cant even see the probs im facing,
but u know that i've kept smtg from u or frus cos of some stuffs .
Why u always loves to 'add fuel into the fire' or 'rubbing salt' into my feelings .
Why !

I do always say 'Nevermind, it's okay'
cos' u've told me again & again that u won't do it again .
But still, u did .
Your mouth always says ,
but you always didn't keep the promises that u've made .

& this time round,
I am really disappointed in YOU .
I did not expect YOU to 'link' me with another guy .
Is that what u think ?
I know what u're trying to imply ,
why must u say all those to me ?
What have u been treating me all this while ?
It's like you always 'stabbed' me with a 'knife' & then
apologised to me,
saying u're very sorry about it & won't do it again .
But i tell u,
even u've apologised,
the reality of my 'wound' that u had just 'stabbed' into me,
cannot be changed .
It's still does hurt though .

I'm really tired & im seriously full with 'wounds' that u gave me .
I don't see why i need to explain to u about me with that guy .
If u wanna me reply ur questions in ur smses previously ,
here it is .
I wud only say, yes he is very good to me .
He know how to explain things that im not sure of .
Im grateful to him that he is willing to help me with my studies
eventhough he is e same class as me only not express or special or watevr .
But his studies is far better than me.
& he know how to make my real smile shine .
Im glad that he is my Bestfren after all if what u said is true .
u told me that u dun like ur previous girls?
Tat's so CRAP .

MYE is coming ,
i feel so packed with revisions .
I really hope to do well ,
as what Ms Lim have told me
'MAINTAIN !'

I also won't forget what Mr Goh had told me during e dialogue session .
He's now leaving soon ,
but i will always remember what he told me .
ALWAYS !

I don't think im blogging that much already till aft Mid-yr .
I hope there's is someone who truly understand me
like Benhenda & WLokee :D
But one have left & e other is leaving aft 'O' Levels .
I do appreciate but i just unable to pour everything out
cos it's hard for me .
Seniors are gone soon,
doesn't mean im gone too .
I believe i can take it by myself ,
i won't breakdown again .
& im sure there's a change in everything .

-Ayu (:
Smiles, cheer-upsii !

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