- All I want is to Breakfree! -

No more dwelling Sunday, February 28, 2010 8:56 PM

Whatever it is,
this problem shouldn't be solved so easily.
I'll make you pay double.
Compensate the things you've done.

I've promised myself long ago,
not to mention a word of you.
I've broke my promise,
this will be the last time.

Alright,
positive thinking, positive words.
That will be from me from now,
hopefully.

Today is the last day of CNY.
Didn't have the time to Bainian,
all thanks to the packed schedule & Common tests.

Don't wanna waste time online,
won't be blogging so often.
SIAN

Labels: End Of Chinese New Year

Only God knows what I'm thinking Monday, February 22, 2010 8:29 PM

I hope what I'm doing right now is right.
I've been trying hard enough,
& definitely really worked very well,
to be treating you as real transparent whenever you are.
I kept my feelings till now,
& let you throw any sarcasm to me.
& now yet still trying to make yourself sounds as if you're the victim.
Still say you went around asking about my welfare.
You make me feel so remorseful & you'd dare to ask.
Crap, bullshit only.
C'mon lah, stop acting pathetic.
I don't wanna force myself to dial the person whom gonna treat you hell.
I don't want trouble.

Though I really had a happy times with you,
& also the worst times with you.
I can say I'm true to ***
But you claimed otherwise, I don't mind.
I kept quiet since you've gone for good with another one.
I just hope you will not hurt another one just like what you did to me.

YES, sweet times for the starting,
everything changed very fast soon.

I have not really forgotten the things,
but I'm gonna make myself to forget.

I can't believe you are like that,
it's really scary.
How silly when I've spoke up for you,
saying I'll change you & I'm not gonna regret it.
But hey,
I regret to the maximum.
Regretted for speaking up for you.

Labels: I should have heed Mr Pink advice

REN RI = Lao Yusheng :D Saturday, February 20, 2010 11:02 PM

Ouh Man,
I actually forgot about today!
It's REN RI, men's common Bdae lehhhh.
No wonder my Dad talked to me about Lao Yusheng this morning before I left home T.T
So yeahh, went cwp & ordered some stuff,
it really dig my pocket with a big hole.
Idk if it's e correct phrase but yah.

Then sapede at KFC,
then off to school.
Competition was over,
they really did a great job.
My thoughts of our Girls' Team is ... ...
Oh well, I don't know how to reason it out.

I'll just have to the best that I can do,
but I know it's not my best of the best effort at all...
STOP.

Lunched & took candid pics! :D + shop for stuff,
Dad called & rushed me home,
cousins all at home waiting already.
Bathed>Changed>Zoomed off

Other cousins' pics are blur,

so don't wanna upload them. HAHA.

See my Darling cute right.

She's e one who made me worried sick when we go KK.

My mum don't want talke good pic wif meeeeeee )':

LOL, & candid of me T.T

But it's so funny, fun, nice ! :D

Ah siannnnnnnnnn.

Tmr have to go don't know whatever house with the rest of my cousins,

aiyahh everybody lah.

Sian

Labels: I'm still fighting hard

Boys' Competition Today! D: 10:15 AM

Yeah Right.
people out there do you understand yourself? [:

Yay, Hooray!
Grandparents came back early in e morning today (:
Bought gifts gifts gifts.
So sad Grandma don't know how to buy my clothes,
so no clothing for meeeee )':

Finally had a nice sleep last night,
slept early about 10.30pm man.
Now felt much much refreshed, seriously!
Been burning midnight oil infront of this computer,
collation it's tedious.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

& modification of the scheme took some time,
hope they really work hard & PASS !

Gonna go the boys' competition later on.
Hope everything is alright man.

I'm fighting with my mind, my thinking now, lol.
When everything is well,
someone have to spoil it.
Why?
Can I just go on a hard way?
I feel like punching people.
Damned it.

Labels: Understanding yourself

Good News Tuesday, February 16, 2010 12:05 AM

Yes true, was acting cute when I'm not cute

in front of Banana man' DSL.

That was when I'm Sec2, what do you expect.

Hahaaa.

Memories! OMG.

I'm sec4 alr -.-

So fast ...

Had steamboat with family last night.
Whoooo, nice nice :D LOL
Family = My Parents only lah -.-
Okay then today what?
They went to work already!
I'm left at home alone,
facing the 4 walls D:

Planned to bainian with friends today,
but some can't make it.
I also lazy liao, don't wanna go.
HAHAHAHA.
Well Sunday will be the day bah.

Online till 2 am plus, close to 3am.
Chatted with lalala & I got a good news from lalala!
OMG, next Monday sehy (:
But you won't be stepping to my class anyway,
but hey!
I'm glad but don't know why,
it's abit 'ouh okay great' not 'yes, that's great! OMG!'
ROFL.
What's wrong man.
PS I really don't know!
Mood was lousy, man.
Maybe bcos Monday still quite long?
Maybe ..

Hmmm, wanted to sleep straight after I offline.
But I was really still wide awake.
So yeahh, did my homework luh.
I didn't know I was so guai, Heeeeee.
Last homework was MATH.
Hooray, but it makes my brain excersise,
till I'm tired, looking at those numbers.
HAHA.
Went to sleep with Aircon switched on (:
Tossed around like for damn half an hour,
it's too cold!
Woke up switched off aircon-switch on fan-SLEEP!

Like finally (:
Usual routine this morning without hp.
Heeee. PS to all those peeps who smsed me yeahh.

Okay,
Nothing much already.
Buhbyeeeeeeee :D

Labels: Time Flies

Valentines' Day (: Monday, February 15, 2010 3:50 PM

Happy Chinese New Year,
Dearest Dudes & Babes! (:

Not going anywhere,
the atmosphere is not right.
Not having so called open house,
invite friends over as per normal for this year.
& I don't know how to explain to my friends
when they said they wanted to come over ):

It's about 40 days after my uncle passed away.
Just like when a baby is 1 month old,
although it's said to be 1 month old, it's 40 days to be exact.
So there's celebration, & yada yada .
Same goes to my uncle.
I don't know if it's only for my culture lah.
Although he is not in S'pore,
it's not good when people are holding that event
& we're having CNY celebrations.
Well, i guess my readers is blur too.
Hah, just forget it.

It's really bored at home,
can't even celebrate with them.
Especially my parents, my mum.
But I can go with my friends,
& wait till my Grandparents come back on the 8th Day of CNY.
I'm gonna bainian with them :D

Happy Valentines' Day! (:
Firstly, sorry Taufiq (:
I know you have so called 'booked',
but I'm lazy to celebrate, ROFL.
Not really lah, just not on this day.

Woah, it's Double Happiness this year.
I missed my Sec 1 & 2 years man.
When there's fund-raising event organised by the students in school,
selling roses & Valentine's cards.
Most people will buy & give & receive them (:
To show our love in frienship or whatever.
All those sweet moments was pretty awesome!
Couples were made,
I still remember vividly how Ravin proposed to CJ.

Haha, it's all in e past.
Also, the times when I received roses
& handmade cards from my friends
& seniors before they leave RS.
Time flies & i missed them hell loads.
I still remember I received few roses,
& I don't really dare to take it out from my bag when I reached home,
cos my parents will prob alot -.-

So i kept in my bag till the next day,
& bring it back to school.
Was slacking after school at the study tables with peeps,
took them out & do stupid things.
Like what?

Pluck the petals one by one & you know what lah ayeee.
In the end, threw them away ~
Wasted siaaa.
If I'm gonna receive any flowers next time,
I'm so gonna have the courage to take it out from my bag & put it at home.
Then cover my ears when parents start nagging.
Keep it as whatever dry flowers or what lah.
But I guess it will be a long way to go.
Well, I'm not looking forward to it anyway.
Cos I'm happy enough to have my Babes & Dudes around me.
& my 46 Children :D
But hopefully, next year will be a better celebration (:

Lots of love,
Ayuuuuuuuuu (:

Labels: Sweet little things

Lunar New Year 3:27 PM

Woke up, everyone seems busy in the kitchen.
But hey! I'm so happy yeahh.
Cos I no need to lay a finger on anything.
Woah,
Grandparents wanna cook for us before they go M'sia.

Then off they went to Sengkang to pick my the other cousins to my house.
So Elder Uncle came with his family first.
Then another 2 cousins came with my Grandparents.
All the kids were playing like mad in my room,
jumping up & down my bed.
Oh man, that was crazy.
Who cares lah, as long as they don't fight.
Straight after my prayers,
my Darling was crying hell loud.
Her bro stepped on her arm & make her cry so badly.
How sad was that.

She cried & hugged me wor, sweet. LOL
It's abit swollen, yes.
She said it's very painful when she want to lift it up.
Everyone was like,
'perhaps she fractured her hand'.

Booooooooooooooooommmzzz .
Grandpa & myself went KK Hospital straightaway.
She was like crying at the Children Emergency place,
when the nurse bandaged her hand.
Her parents came over then.
Went to X-ray room,
her crying can be heard from e outside.
Imagine that, Dudes. Hah.

Went consultant room,
Doctor asked few qns,
just feel here & there.
Darling not in pain anymore.
Stopped crying already.
Everything was okay!
No fractured, nothing!
OMG. It really scares me man.

She's back to herself, went back to her house.
Her parents pack stuff & then head to my house again.
I was famished, gosh.
The other cousins went back already since it took us really long to come back.
We had our food,
Uncle slept in my room.
Auntie, Grandma, Darling & Me do our girls' stuff.
Polishing Nails. HAHAHAHA.
Well I was the one who helped them okay,
I didn't do much for myself lah.
Boring man.

I guess about 8pm or so Darling & her bro they all went off to M'sia liao.
They were like so excited man, cuteeeeeee :D

Grandpa & Dad went off to have a drink.
Left Grandma, mum & me,
had satay :D :D :D
Till midnight, lol.
Received smses & was flooded wif messages.
I waited for all smses to reach me, then I started reading them.
Hahahaaa.
Cos it's really annoying when I wna read, another sms received.

So then home sweet home.
Grandparents went off to M'sia after Midnight.
At dawn? I don't know, I was sleeping -.-
Carefree life they had yeah,
3 days at M'sia then going to Thailand after that.

How sweet this old couple is.
Hahahahahaha .____.

Sayonara.

Labels: Darling was hurt

Reunion 3:05 PM

Hey peppo Ayu Crazy is back posting.
Reunion dinner was on Friday night.
Cos my Cousins & Grandparents going off to M'sia on the following day.

So yeah, went to school as per normal.
After CNY celebrations,
off to Plaza Singapura wif my Babes :D
I can't find what I want to buy over there )':
But I got myself 4 new nail polish! (:
Including both base & top coats.
Which I wanted it so long ago, finally man.
Well, it's new year & I don't have new colors, so yeahh.

So .. I managed not to be 'late comer' for the dinner then.
The eldest uncle went home after that,
but my 2nd uncle all went to my house.
Chat chat play play with cousins fun though.
Heeeeeeeee .

See you again,

the always crazy Dude,

Labels: Plaza Singapura :D

Cheers Coffee ! Monday, February 8, 2010 1:50 PM

I love sunrise!
How I wish I could watch it with someone that I love.
Woah woah woah ...
I'm given love drugs is it? ROFL.
Stop crapping lah.
Learn this phrase & it just came out of my mind,
Suddenly because of random-ness D':

'Whether or not it's happy or sad,
you'll have to face it''

But facing it alone or with someone,
it's another matter.

Urgh.
Still left about 10 more notebooks to go,
or more than that?
Useless me, only can write for few books each day.
Simple things can't even do finish.
So what if I'm busy doing all those frying,
but still got time to finish up the reflections right.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh.
Still can blog while doing your work?
Power, Fuyou ~ WTH WTH.

Today, felt tired so bathe.
Tired again, bathe again.
How many times must I do that ._____.'''
But a cup of coffee makes me feel otherwise.
Hoho, hoho, hoho.
Stupid me, should use this earlier.
Alaaaaaaaaaaaaamaaaaaaaaaak.
I'm trying to drink less coffee,
please lah ehh,
Rahayu, coffee kills your brain cells!
Insomnia will come after you!
Must get rid of this habit ! D":

Gamatte ! :D :D

Labels: Jiayous

Super Random Saturday, February 6, 2010 9:31 PM

Let's Go Random Peeeeepo ! :D

They are sooooooooooo handsome!

I want their posters man, hahahaha.

Wait till I'm free to go & buyyyy -.-

Okay, guess what?

2 days of E-learning is practically bored ahh!
I rather choose to go to school as per normal lah.

Oh well anyway,

had Geography extra lessons today.

Sec3's are back from their Adventure camp too.

Ahaaaaa, must have had fun yeahh.

Lunched with Sangeeeeeeee :D

Then shop around,

I still don't know what to spend with that 100 bucks of mine!

Well, that sum of $$ was actually for me to buy CNY clothes.

But hey!

I can buy clothes anytime so why bother to do that,

now just for CNY ? ! @ # $ % ^ & * ! ?

Haiyeeeeeer.

Been quite sometime since I step into MJ!

Heheeeeee :D
Just wanna look my Lin Jun Jie photo ;x

He's cuuuuuuuuute bodoh !

Woah loves his songs too,

though I do really is crazy about him,
but I don't go around buying/collecting his album uh.
Such a waste of my $$ !
Can listen music online per , heh :D

But I sooooo want his poster!

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Ouh! Saw so-called 'T' heels @ Metro, quite nice ayeeeee .

Wanted to buy that, but but but.

My mum confirm gonna be jealous or what.

Cos currently I got more shoes&heels than hers.

But yet, I don't wear them so often.

Back to my plans wif that $100.

Should I use it to buy my long-wished present?

HAHAHAHA. Money not enough, ask Mum to pay!

Whoooooooooshhh.

Wanted to get Levis watch,

but I can't find the design that I want.

Guess I'm switching my taste to ..

Addidas / Puma ? o.O

I got a feeling that my mum gonna pay the FULL amount! :D

Cos she went wif me to shop e other day,

she was like asking which type I want,

Choose already I get the money from her can liao.

Didn't talk about my $100 !

OUH MAN, I GOT A BIG BIG DEAL THIS TIME.

Sugeng Dalu Lan Sare ! :D :D :D

Labels: Ups For TODAY :D

Ruminate Thursday, February 4, 2010 3:55 AM

Same old things kept going through my mind.
The exact same thing struck my mind last night.
No matter how hard I want to shake it off,
it's still there, in my freaking mind.

I hope things goes well at partner side today in school.
Cos Im having E-learning.

Gonna go school to meet up Syariflurplurp & head to AI Sec to meet AC later.
Ahhhh gossh,
I suddenly feel that I don't have the urge to go.

Im losing passion in all that I did.
Why everything must go this way?
Ruminative Brooding,
am I really like that?
Do I have it?
WTH.

Labels: Screwed

Past Monday, February 1, 2010 9:17 PM

How I wish I didn't heed my Dad's advice,
& then I can be a dancer. LOL.
Sounds funny now when I mention about me being a dancer right~

Im still keeping my ballet shoes :D

I missed my old days.

But nevertheless,

If I didn't enter NPCC,

I would never get to know my precious partner,

& my 46 kids!

Suddenly this reluctant feeling struck me. OMG .____.

Anyway,

Im very tired & I don't know how to describe my life.

Im neither there nor here ...

Chehwah, asal nak sedih lagi nih!

If i were to be a girl who is very quiet,

how would things become for me?

Im happy to be able to have a great impact on someone,

whom I admired the most.

Admire in terms of leadership & studies sayaaaaaaaaaang.

I'd loved to be loved,

but I wanna love & make people happy even more.

I don't wish to be a burden to whoever lah.

Campcraft Competition,

I must be in it.

I don't really think it would affect me that much,

as long as the letter doesn't get to Ms Fu hands.

Aiyaaaaaaaaaah,

even if I were to give her,

pun tak ada masalah pe.

Guess i should get myself to work on e next training.

Im well enough to do so,

who say?

I said it .

Pardon me for being so random today, kept switching channel in this post of mine. Sayonaraaaaa :D

Labels: Cherish this