Hot News Baybehhh ! Sunday, January 31, 2010 9:41 PM
Last day of Jan 2010 !
OMG, so fast one month already !
Hmmmm,
I must blog end of the month to show my gratitude to whoever okay! :D :D
So what about this Jan?
Suddenly my mind went blank.
Can't list anything here.
Just simple words,
A Drastic Change Of Life .
I wish I could stop the time,
So that I could stop thinking.
I swear I'd want tostop having so much thoughts on it.
On a brighter note,
woah ~
Both Syariflurplurp & Me were nominated to be Station Inspector bodoh !
Im freaking happy giler ,
plus I'm totally surprised man.
The times when seniors asked me who will be the 2 SIs,
my mind would think of these 2 person.
Obviously my name wasn't in my mind lah.
Didn't expect I was nominated !
Oh well,
we still need to meet Area Commandant and pass the interview.
So good luck to me ,
hopefully I can be promoted to Station Inspector sehy !
Allhamdulilaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !
Terima Kasih banyak, Allah.
& with all these happy moments that I was given,
was it you who have watched over me ,
& allow me to get this happiness?
How I wish I could exchange my happy thoughts,
with you.
Even without these happiness,
I can be real happy with your love.
I want to see you the last time.
But I was too late for regrets.
I hope you are doing well up there.
Miss you (:
Labels: Changes
Eyepower 1:58 PM
Konnichiwa .
Having only eyepower for campcraft training,
of course is a real torture.
All i can do was just to cheer the rest from outside the pitching area.
How sad was that man.
I can't feel the anxiety if im just standing outside.
I don't know & I can't tell the future.
Im still hesitating whether or not should i tell what im suppose to tell to Ms Fu.
Haiyo!
Im just afraid I might not be able to accomplish what I've been wishing for.
Alright, whatever it is.
Im still must be positive ! :D
Alright,
What am i suppose to do?
Im actually lost,
just wanted to avoid all these things.
I hope all things can go smoothly,
especially to this particular Babe of mine.
Im lost when im just outside e doctor's room e other day.
The person whom i want her to be with me,
wasn't there.
Happiness doesn't come easily till you seize that chance!
I hope you are guiding me when you are in heaven.
Im missing you, alot.
I will visit your graveyard once im back again.
Be Brave okay!
C'mon Rahayu !
My mindset is right, don't worry so much!
Everything gonna be well.
I want to pick up that courage,
but i will take a very long time.
The courage of me having to pour the feelings out to the respective people in my life.
Whether or not in friendship, relationship or working partners.
No difference.
Just love this phrase :
Letters start with ABC
Numbers start with 123
Music starts with DO RE MI
Love starts with you & Me !
Labels: The Difference
Passion Friday, January 29, 2010 10:09 PM
Zoooooooooommmmmeeeeeeedddddddddd .I don't know what's wrong with me for today's parade.My mind is out of control!Focus.Concentrate please!Stop scaring your babies !Ahhh damned,Im gonna flare up with this unfair & not responsible people man!Im really tired of all these.Really really tired.Im a dynamite now i guess,can blow up any time soon.Stop pressing me hard on all these,Im tired !Oh no, i can't lose passion.The only thing that drives me in parades are all those 46 kiddos.C'mon la Rahayu, persevere plus patience.Chill chill , cool down.Everything that im doing will be paid off,it will benefit them.Confirmed plus guarantee plus chop!Believe it.Im so gonna treat myself better,to 'bu' all those pains in me man.I must get well in that 2 weeks.& im gonna fly like superwoman !Believe it, I can do it!Cheers,Ayuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :DLabels: Tititi.. BOOOOMZ
Relieved Thursday, January 28, 2010 7:22 PM
Booooooyey people !Learning Journey today,I guess those who went to the Zoo must have enjoyed themselves more than us !Anywayyyyyyyyy,meeting after that.Hope everything goes smoothly & I like the current Maincomm ;xNahhhh, whatever.Next, went to Raffles Clinic @ cwp .Cos yesterday after training too late to go,at night was nagged by my parents &so I was asked to go by today no matter what T.TIm actually afraid to see the doctor, sheeeeeeeshh .Im afraid I might hear some unpleasant stuff,& that is why I've been hesitating for so long.Ouh man , guess what !Sinseh told me it's kinda serious cos got slight muscle tear.On e other hand,Doctor told me that I've strained my muscle& if i rest properly for about full 2 weeks from now,I can get well soon & be back as normal me!But e cruel thing he told me is that,he strongly advised me not to join CC competition.Cos e time when my injury just recovered,it will be e arrival of e competition.If im gonna strain again, it will be hassle.& whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat,I've debated with him !Saying if i can manage i will go for competition,if strain again, we'll see.Okay? He kept quiet & give me e ;/ face !Well i have to endure this pain now,concentrate on recovering,to be able to bounce back to my real me again.RESILIENCE'No Pain, No Gain'Ouh no,it's difficult to trust Sinseh again -.-HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA !Alright,looking forward to every now & then.Every moment is precious,I really must be sensitive to e ones around me,spend time wif loved ones whenever i can,I don't wish to repeat e same mistake,& regret again .For not being able to bid goodbye to my precious one before he left my world& turned it into a pitch dark memories.Labels: Love every moment while you can
Keep Smiling Saturday, January 23, 2010 5:10 PM
Whoosh whoosh .SINSEH.Hah, yesyes the process was painful.But thanks to her too for making my hand feel better.Yeap , it's minor, that was what i said what.Just muscle cramp, tear whatever shits i don't understand all those terms.But c'mon la, it's just minor injury.2 weeks of resting w/o any campcraft for me it's a torture.But i must get well & start training once 2 wks is over.Exact 2 wks : 6 Feb im freeeee to do ANYTHING.Wahahahahahahah, LOL.Boooooomzzz, I felt empty especially when i need to face the empty house when i reached home.Boooooooo,look on the bright side of life.Tadaaaaa,sayonaraaaaaaaa (:Labels: Counting Down
Perseverence Friday, January 22, 2010 9:40 PM
Ahh damned it.Every family has it's own problems,every one has his/her own problems too.Ouh shits,i guess Heaven is treating my life as a game.Full of ups & downs almost everyday.I wonder , when will this hell-ish(SINGLISH) feeling go away.Like seriously.I don't know where to start counting & listing down the problems.Im unaware of all this crap surroundings that God gave it to me.How i wish i can stop the time, & let me rest after all this 'Disasters' that have struck me.Of course,giving a smile or laugh out loud is a way to erase frustrations.That's what im capable of, & it do makes people besides me happy.I can't possibly start crying everytime,to be a crybaby like everyday,even worst, people besides me can get moody.So I don't want to be the cause of all this.C'mon Rahayu !Yes Im sure im not gonna let all these shitty things to affect me,in school !& ya, it takes time to heal all wounds,it may be a short time or very long time.God Knows.Side track,I don't think my wishes will come true in NPCC.The things that i can see from now,may not happen . How sad .Okay, im not gonna let myself to be so-calleda 'slacker' in NP room for any parades anymore.& Im not gonna let my name appear in that Admin book again.I felt damn suckish not being able to be with e sec3s.& im truly afraid of tmr .Im SURE it's just minor injury, nothing else.Competition coming, I can't afford to be really 'paralysed' !RAHAYUUUUUUUUUU, you'll be okay :DLabels: It all takes time
Love is Impulsive Sunday, January 17, 2010 4:19 PM
I wished to say the things that you wanna hear.
Because you are Mr. Nice !
But im really afraid to hurt another person and again, myself.
I don't want bcos of my little decision,
caused everything to be so miserable.
& we are gonna face each other more than a year of trainings.
I don't want to screw the friendship and the joker of yours.
& im not in a right situation to have a relationship.
All i want for now,
is a good listener and shoulders for me to lean on.
I need someone to share my frustrations.
Because I cannot tolerate anymore,
with all those things in my mind.Thanks for your understanding ,we are just close friends.Labels: Friendship is more valuable
Forgetful Saturday, January 16, 2010 9:52 PM
Whooooooooossshhh ~ !!Campcraft training, great job but we have to improve even further !Morning wake up throat totally damn pain man, with blocked nose T.TRunning nose started when im on my way to sch, wahlao felt really sick sia.But hey! I tot i'll be casualty man .Seriously, im so happy that i did train CC yeahh. LOLSLuch-ed aft training ,2 sec3 jokers , funny sehy .Ouhwell,i realised that i didn't bring my hse key & no one's at home !Lucky got 2 pathetic boys to entertain me wif their love life.Hahahahahaha !
Kinda late so didn't wna hold them too long ,
tot i'll just have to camp outside my hse ,
grandparents came back alr & they were hvg their lch !
Booyey , got keys to go in ! (:
Woots ahh , got lots of homework to rush ! -.- Pathetic me , got to use tissue to stuff it into my nose when doing hmwk!Left chinese letter writing & EL compo !Grrrrrrrr ...Thats all & off to chat with my night rider !Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa .Sayonaraaaaaaaaa .I dont wanna be sick , please let me get well soon . Im relying on you, God !
Labels: Homework and more homework
Back To Parade :D Friday, January 15, 2010 9:49 PM
Im beat.
Both emotional & physical.
Real beat like hell.
Ouh God , please send someone to me can?
Im freaking out, been distracted in class )':
I need a good listener & shoulders .
If anyone understand that.
Ahh shits.
Anyway, i just wna vent some things out for now ..
Just thought of my uncle , he's always on my mind .
Today is e exact ONE week after his ***** ..
& at kampong they are having kenduri ,
Im really devastated not to be there ... ...
But i know, it can't be helped .
Someone pls cure me wif all these shitty things ! D':
So, im so glad to be back with my sec3 .
Watever comm they are in, im sure they can be good CLs .
I really wna them to be outstanding.
Ahh enough said then .
I jus dun understand how ** think of them man !
Aft parade, it's really a hell thingy for me !
Seriously, freaked & really damn malu ass sia !
Im so gonna not let CS win this !
Grr ... !
Ouh please, i need to let my heart out of all these ,
I can't tolerate anymore .
& P/S : Im totally sorry if im in a bad mood for no reason .
There's always reasons to everything, if i flare up just like that ..
Im really sorry .
Labels: Cure me cure my thinking ...
Bring him back to my world Tuesday, January 12, 2010 12:45 PM
Blurrish shot cos of my hand .________.Damn freaking funny hor !Ouh God, the word 'Dead' is super sensitive to me now ... ...An sms from my aunt struck me like hell & i cant really take it.I've been looking forward to my uncle recovery ,also been praying hard for him.All i prayed for was only & always these 3 things :1. Hoping that my uncle can recover fast because he was discharged already.2. Hope my parents work even harder to help my uncle's needs.3. Prays hard for my loved ones & friends, may harm be avoided.I just hope these ...Yet just a blink of my eye, i was told that uncle has gone.It really hit me hard & im afraid that i can't concentrate the things i have on my hand right now.I hope this will not affect me too much in school, i'll try not to.But the thing is, I still feel that uncle is still beside me.I really doesn't wanna know if he really had left me, us .He is my favourite uncle & he dotes on me e most.For now, im really worried about the guy who took e photo with me at e top.Firstly, parents divorced.He lives wif e mum & e dad was sick then.& now, Dad had left him alone wif his mum ...He will stop schooling from next year ...Single parent is really sadistic , & i wanna him to be happy!I really wanna know how he is now , i hope he is strong .He is cheerful and i really hope he is stronger than me .I really don't dare to think when im back to Indonesia again e next time round,without e person who i really wanna see ,because all i can visit is at ,the graveyard .& to whoever is reading this ,& if you're involved in Orientation Camp whether or not you're an OGL or a Maincomm member,all of you have done really great.There's nothing much i wanna say because I really have no mood to elaborate the things that happened for that 2 days.But all i wanna say is, we made this camp a success not only bcos of e Maincomm but EVERYONE of us!
Labels: Hope is lost
Changing Lifestyle Wednesday, January 6, 2010 1:45 PM
Tadaaaaaaaa .Just wanna share this positive sentence with my readers !' If you like something,If you love something,you will not wait for others to ask you to do it,but you will do it yourself . 'Buck up and striveeeeeeeeeee :DI didn't know until you tell me ,I didn't realise that I actually have a positive big impact on someone.& Im glad to hear that !Thanks so much to ya know ... Heeee, shall not mention the name here .I will just have to wish you the best ,everyone do have his/her weaknesses BUT also the STRENGTHS !Don't only look at your weakness but also the positive side of you ! :DSayonara .
Labels: Let's Strive (:
Back To School Tuesday, January 5, 2010 12:40 PM
First Day of school. Great.
Holding the x'mas gifts too long, finally distributed to the respective owners, lol.
Hmm, anyway yeap Mr Tsung is funneh ~
But e the positive i've learnt is that ,
he practised mannerism. (Although quite exaggerating)
Bowing 90 degrees quite awkward in s'pore.
But japanese do that.
Im really surprised there is actually someone who is uniquely different.
& e words he said are BIG words.
It's time to catch up wif ur vocab Ayu ! (:
Im hope tmr will be a better day.
Things coming up next :
1. Orientation Briefing
2. Sec1 Orientation Camp
3. Campcraft Trainings & Competition
4. Lets Play! Programme 2010
5. Sports Leaders Workshop
6. Sports Leaders Workshop
7. Olympics Camp
8. 9th EXCO selection matters
I hope everything goes smoothly. Insyallah (:
Ayuuuuuuuuu .
Labels: Responsibilities seems far but near
Secondary 4 Life Sunday, January 3, 2010 9:58 PM
Whooshh ~ !
Tmr the first day of school .
First start of my Secondary 4 life gonna start in few more hours !
Ohwell, jiayous !
LUMINA !
OMG i miss them hell loads man )':
Having an outing on 6th Jan !
But i can't go with them ):
Ouh well, i got school while they don't !
JC whaaaaaaat ._________.
On a brighter note ,
we can have more outings another time !
Sayonara !
Labels: LUMINA
Happy New Year :D Saturday, January 2, 2010 12:30 PM
Whoo !Had sushi & strawberries last night when watching e countdown .With just these little thing things, im contented enough (:Anw,HAPPY NEW YEAR !2010, many said :A new year, a new beginning .I'll make this a new beginning for me, I won't let 2009 problems pester me.Whatever i said, i hope it will be true.Anw,Happy Birthday to Mak'E ! (Grandma) 01Jan2010 !Hmm, she donwanna take e pic but i forced her !She dont wanna pose )':
Labels: A New Beginning
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