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Long Long Long Post For Now .... Saturday, October 10, 2009 1:08 PM

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Must be a long long post this time ! (:

05NOV, Monday.

Emath paper1 & SS .

Emath was hard, SS was okay .

& then i dont know what i did alr ,

seriously forgot ;x

06NOV, Tuesday

Emath Paper2 . Hard la hard la. Difficult.
Speechless. Haiz ~

I dont know how i did for my chem paper previously,

but i know that im not gonna do very well , i dont understand chem!
I knew i have to buck up wid my physics & do well for it.
Stayed up in sch to study ,
went to look for Mr Khairul.

Thanks alot to him , credits goes to him,

things that i asked did came out.

But then he went off at 5pm , i cant get to ask him more.

So went home, studied again ,

i really hope that physics can help wid my combined science.

But gastric was killing me.

It was really painful when i walked home.

Lucky my mum never work,

cook hot noodle soup & then had some rest .

Although its still painful, i still did my revision.

Had to burnt midnight oil i wud say .

See, thats shows i wanna study & pass okay .

& i like physics than chem , ya know . HAHA.

07NOV, Wednesday
Had physics paper.
I was really really nervous while waiting for e clock to show 8.15am.
Damned , seriously , i never had this feeling before .
God knows how i feel.
During paper , im so relieved .
I really really thought e paper gonna be hard.
But i managed to do it ,
at least all my revisions & looking for Mr Khairul is worth it.
Please please , dont let chem pull down my marks .
I feel suckish , i will . Ahhhh~ !

Then studied A.Math , thanks to ANDREW okay .

I shoud discuss e w/s that Mr Wee gave to practice, not TYS !

Damned it , no use saying these alr .

But whatever it is , thanks Andrew & Samuel for helping .

Anyway , had really fun when studying wid them, ROFL .

Went to see Mr Wee tgt wid e guys , but samuel went off 1st.

It was 6.30pm plus then ..

All of us chiong down , even Mr Wee .

HAHA, cos staff room door was locked , HAHA .

E gate was closing too -.-

He then gave each of us a free lift .

Well , e part where he turned e car was scary ,

Andrew flew to me , ROFL , HAHAHAHA D:

He's too light alr laaaaa, haahahahaha :P

Burnt midnight oil again ,

cos i dont wanna drop A.Math , seriously.

08NOV, Thursday
A.Math paper , i was worried that i couldn't do.

But at least i want to do all questions at least can get marks a little here & there .

During paper ,

i dont know why gastric acts up again.

It was damn painful, somemore it was cold & raining like what ! D:

I wanted to give up , & stop doing it man .

OMG , teachers kept walking around ,

i look so weird having to press my kidney? stomache? ,

during paper right ~

HAHAHA, so of cos , Ms Ayu continued wid her work ! :D

Im not gonna give up my A.Math paper !

Then MCQ science .

Most qns for chem i jus tikam & tikam ... HAHA .

But but , I've passed ! (:

Then got POA extra lesson.

09NOV, Friday

POA paper. I have no more comment.

Had plans after that , to jalan raye ,

nak happy happy . HAIZ !

But then have to follow my sec2 for their basic course.

Well, im quite upset actually.

But ohwell, its my sec2 .

I cant blame them for that, im responsible for that.

Anw , i do enjoy being wid them actually ,

every parade,

they are e ones that motivates me on coming to parades happily.

Ended quite late from what i expected, then rushed home to bath & change,

then managed to join e rest at only abt 8pm plus ._.

Then home-ed at abt 11pm plus only.
Had fun at Alif hse

I felt really really really disappointed in both of you, seriously .
This suckish feeling struck me last night ,
& i realised that the things that i have done all bcos of you,
yeap, you dont know , i dont want to say what it is ,
but everything is pointless now .
I now felt super disgusted, i really dont know what i should do,
to let you realise the things that have happened.
Where is the old you that i knew long ago ?
You have changed, drastically .
You made me super down last night ,
when that smsed was sent to my hp .
I dont know who are you , seriously .
I've been saying i've given up on you ,
but have i really done that?
NO , i did not .
I thought when things gets better , i wanted to talk to you ,
but things changed again , for e worst .
I dont see e point of having a nice talk to you.
When all ur fake faces that have been smiling at me ,
& e freaky attitude of urs that are written on ur face ,
already makes me given up on you .
& so , i really will .
I wanna give up , im sorry.
Im very tired.
But still, i hope u can realise it urself.

& Faris , u're wrong .
you said im understanding ,
u're wrong , im not at all .
Don't thank me , i did nothing.

One thing that i can say is ,
im useless .
I know .

I can only believe in myself ,
i dont need anyone to shoulder on ,
i'll be the craziest Ayuuuuuuuuu ,
because of myself .

Anw , Alif Alif Alif ,
thanks so much , i really appreciate it .
But i dont need to phone you ,
you know why .
Good Luck in ur N levels ,
update me how u did okay .
See ya soon .

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